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[newlite]

latly i just arent sure what im feeling. im new to chirstainty and i know im not sure and dont get alot of things but later ive been feeling left out. im not sure what or why or i just dont know a lot of things in my life but when im surrounded by ppl i start feeling weird. even at my church. it feels im the only chirstain anywhere. im not purfect. i have faults, but ive noticed alot of ppl who just arent quite following chirstian princapals? the watch bad tv shows, talk bad, act bad, the arent really any different then anyone else. i feel like im always alone. i dont know whats happening to me. i use to get worn down by going to other rather un me forums. i ran away here. now in a christain forum i still feel alone. i guess its depression or having no friends or no one to tyalk to. i dont know really. sometime the weight of everything bears to much on me. i got no place to run now. no place to hide. im not even sure about the baptist forum. im running out of places. i know i cant hide forever. but schools coming up. last year was bad. this year will be way worst. i find now all i want to do is run in my closet and hide there forever. not like anyone would miss me. i just want whats missing. gods somewhere. i dont know where anymore. mabey hes waiting in the closet to???

 

[Jessica Lauren]

Pray to God. He's always the one to run to.

 

[GreenEyedLady]

Awwwwwww Newlite.
I was 15 once and its TOUGH! Ahhhhhh I know its tough.
You know what helps me when I am down like that?
I get down on my hands and knees and close my eyes and I think about what the Lords face looks like. I start to pray to Him. Sometimes, I can feel Him right there. I pretend that my head is in his lap while I am praying to Him.
I think that the Holy Spirit gives us a new look on things. Its like we are aware of ALL sin and that is all you can see for awhile. You just have to remember that you were once in darkness too. Also, when I see lukewarm Christians, I remind myself to stay on the straight and narrow because I don't want to be lukewarm.
I hope this helps you.
GEL

 

[Gold Dragon]

newlite, I want to encourage you that Christianity isn't about Christians because we are all fallen, but it is about a marvelous Christ who opened his arms to the poor, the downtrodden and the oppressed. He provides rest for the weary and hope for the poor in spirit.

High school can be a difficult time for some and downright depressing for others. There are many who love you and would greatly miss the joy and life that you bring to their lives. I encourage you to talk to a parent, pastor or school counsellor that you can trust about your depression and discouragement in people. Chances are they would understand and agree with some of your concerns.

However, I encourage you to look to the powerful image of the cross. That what Jesus did there was for you. Because you are his chosen one. You are the love of his life.

My prayers are with you.

 

[bleechers]

latly i just arent sure what im feeling. im new to chirstainty and i know im not sure and dont get alot of things but later ive been feeling left out. im not sure what or why or i just dont know a lot of things in my life but when im surrounded by ppl i start feeling weird. even at my church. it feels im the only chirstain anywhere. im not purfect. i have faults, but ive noticed alot of ppl who just arent quite following chirstian princapals? the watch bad tv shows, talk bad, act bad, the arent really any different then anyone else. i feel like im always alone. i dont know whats happening to me. i use to get worn down by going to other rather un me forums. i ran away here. now in a christain forum i still feel alone. i guess its depression or having no friends or no one to tyalk to. i dont know really. sometime the weight of everything bears to much on me. i got no place to run now. no place to hide. im not even sure about the baptist forum. im running out of places. i know i cant hide forever. but schools coming up. last year was bad. this year will be way worst. i find now all i want to do is run in my closet and hide there forever. not like anyone would miss me. i just want whats missing. gods somewhere. i dont know where anymore. mabey hes waiting in the closet to???

In a way I envy you... I did not become a Christian until I was 25 years old. My teenage years were a confusing mish-mash of religious (not Christian) zeal and a constant struggle with just about everything... In Christ you can find perspective and guidance for life; Biblical perspective and biblical guidance!

One of the greatest things about being a Christian is having wisdom. My friend and I call it the "OOOOHHHH, so THAT's why that's happening" effect. Becoming a Christian and getting grounded in His word put life into perspective... the news, my relationships, my flesh, the future, everything!

Look at the world through Bible-colored glasses. See life here as temporary and life in and with Christ as eternal!

 

[12volt_man]

I'm sorry you're having a rough time of it, newlite.

I'm praying for you.

 

[P_G]

not like anyone would miss me. i just want whats missing. gods somewhere. i dont know where anymore. mabey hes waiting in the closet to???

Little angel

I would miss you!

Why not spend a little time here and get to know some people.

Let me make a couple of introductions for you

I see Bleechers made a post. He is our resident hard core appologist and evangalist. He plays the electric bass guitar and is one handsome fellow!

My Sister Green Eyed Lady she said hi also I see. She is a very attractive Mother and Wife. Very involved in trying to get the word out that window blinds are dangerous to little kids. You want to learn how to be a good Christain womman? GEL would be a wonderful person to learn from!

If I am going to introduce one great womman of G-d I might just as well do two! If you poke around you will find our other resident Mennonite Crazy Liz. She is always ready to defend the faith and the minority opinion. You make friends with her and you will have a good friend indeed!

If you look around you will find a couple of fellows BT and Davelu, both these young men are in Bible College Studying to become pastors or ministers. I think Dave is at Liberty. You got bible questions I bet they would have some answers, and they need to practice pastoring on some one!

Lets See KCJls is about your same age she would be a good person to get to know. And when you do could you find out who that girl is in the pictures?

You know what there is another young Baptist girl here I am very fond of Red That's Me. She is really involved in the teen forum and I bet if you asked her she would introduce you around there too.

And last but not least let me introduce you to a very very special person her name is Newlite. She is a young lady who is a blood bought saint of G-d. She will be spending all eternity in heaven with me and that makes me happy to just think about it. Because she accepted Jesus as her savior and L-rd she is part of his family a royal family, Jesus is her brother and that makes her a princess. A lovely princess in the royal household of G-d that is who Newlite is.


Blessings

Pastor George

 

[RED that's ME]

newlite adding you to my IM and a PM is on the way.

 

[OracleX]

I hear your pain and loneliness. In past and current times the things I find that bring comfort are close strong Christian friends but more so reading the Bible and praying. There are many strong Christian folk here that would love to help. My inbox and MSNM are always available.

Looking to the Word there are many many things that the Bible has to say on these things.

[bible]1 Peter 5:7[/bible]
[bible]Luke 12:7[/bible]
[bible]Matthew 6:33[/bible]
[bible]2 Corinthians 1:3-4[/bible]
[bible]Psalms 42:5[/bible]
[bible]Psalms 119:50[/bible]
[bible]Psalms 138:7[/bible]
[bible]Romans 8:28[/bible]
[bible]Isaiah 41:10[/bible]
[bible]Ephesians 6:10-18[/bible]

 

[OracleX]

One other thing that I pray will help.

Resting In Our Salvation
[bible]Hebrews 4:1-13[/bible]

Are you resting in your salvation? Have you stopped struggling to be saved? Have you accepted the free gift that Christ has offered to all? How many times have you wondered if you are saved? How many times have you doubted your salvation and prayed that prayer or gone forward to the altar again? This is not what Christ meant for you to be like.

Our salvation in Jesus Christ is a rest. It is a rest from the struggle and the labour to enter into the rest. It is a rest from the struggle that one goes through before making the decision to make Christ their Lord and Savior. In Hebrews it tells us that we labour to enter into that rest. We labour, we struggle to give up ourselves to follow God. We lay down our lives at His feet and accept His salvation. There are two groups of people in Hebrews here, them and us. The us representing those who have ceased the struggle and are resting in Christ and them, who are still examples of unbelief.

Do you remember when you accepted Christ’s salvation? Do you know that you are a child of God? Have you been redeemed by the blood of the Lamb? If so, stop striving to be saved! Our salvation is a free gift from God. Once we are saved we are firmly placed in His hand.

[bible]Jude 1:24[/bible]
[bible]1 Peter 1:4-5[/bible]
[bible]2 Timothy 1:12[/bible]
[bible]John 10:28-29[/bible]
Once you have accepted Christ as your Savior, rest. Our labour that we do after we are saved, is a labour of love, because we are saved.

So strive, labour and struggle to enter in to the rest. But once you have made that decision, rest. You are in Gods hands and He will keep you.

 

[newlite]

And last but not least let me introduce you to a very very special person her name is Newlite. She is a young lady who is a blood bought saint of G-d. She will be spending all eternity in heaven with me and that makes me happy to just think about it. Because she accepted Jesus as her savior and L-rd she is part of his family a royal family, Jesus is her brother and that makes her a princess. A lovely princess in the royal household of G-d that is who Newlite is.

thank you. i know your right and this is serious but i laughed... i guess if god says were his bride that would make me a princess.

im going back to camp in a couple days. i guess ive no decide to give up. i dont know whats always holding me back but ill try to talk with a counsuler there and tell him everything. i dont know why i havent done this sooner, somethings always stopped me. i guess last time i was there and accepted chirst i though i was good again. i guess i was still lying to myself. this may sound wierd but please pray that i get depressed at camp. i know know it will be the only way i can break free. i never think stright when im crying. its the only time i ever cry out for help. last time i didnt. please make me have no way out this time...(btw, i was going to ask this at camp but once again im me...is this what the song " brokeness, brokeness is what i need. brokeness, brokeness, is what you want for me" means? i never got why someone would want to feel brokeness. now it seems to make some sence...)

thank you to all that helped and wrote here. i dont know alot of things. i dont know why you wrote or listened. i just want one day to be able to use what you gave me to help someone else. i think i found my closet here...

 

[P_G]

You are so welcome little one

You have very much found a closet here
A prayer Closet!

Filled with comforatble clothes and good memorys

(Did I mention Oracle X and MeSue to you? You know there is more love in this room than I can even begin to recount best you meet everyone!)


Blessings
and a Hug

Pastor George

 

[BT]

latly i just arent sure what im feeling. im new to chirstainty and i know im not sure and dont get alot of things but later ive been feeling left out. im not sure what or why or i just dont know a lot of things in my life but when im surrounded by ppl i start feeling weird. even at my church. it feels im the only chirstain anywhere. im not purfect. i have faults, but ive noticed alot of ppl who just arent quite following chirstian princapals? the watch bad tv shows, talk bad, act bad, the arent really any different then anyone else. i feel like im always alone. i dont know whats happening to me. i use to get worn down by going to other rather un me forums. i ran away here. now in a christain forum i still feel alone. i guess its depression or having no friends or no one to tyalk to. i dont know really. sometime the weight of everything bears to much on me. i got no place to run now. no place to hide. im not even sure about the baptist forum. im running out of places. i know i cant hide forever. but schools coming up. last year was bad. this year will be way worst. i find now all i want to do is run in my closet and hide there forever. not like anyone would miss me. i just want whats missing. gods somewhere. i dont know where anymore. mabey hes waiting in the closet to???

Oh my dear one I'm sorry I missed this thread until now.

The Christian walk can be tough in the beginning. What you need is discipleship. Far too often Christians will see someone saved then kind of forget about them while they move on to the next sinner. I can understand the thought but I am horrified at the reality. The exact same thing happened to me after I was saved.

You will see those in your Christian walk who do not hold to the ideals that they claim to believe in. This is a sad state for a person to be in, and to get past it you must pray for them. If you will take the time to lift them up you will see that you are not alone. That God is with you and hears you and cares about what you have to say, and He will work on their hearts, most likely He will use you!

You have all kinds of friends now! More than that though, you have all kinds of brothers and sisters. I am one of them, and I am concerned about you as are the rest of your brothers and sisters around here. Don't get discouraged if you wander into a thread and see a couple of us arguing... it happens. You see it in any family, and like any family regardless of our arguments we love each other.

If you hid in a closet you would be missed. But more than that you would miss out. There is so much that Christ wants to do for you now. So many ways that He will bless you, all you have to do is remain obedient. Especially when you see those around you who are not.

God is with you. Jesus made a promise before He returned to sit on the right-hand of the Father. He said, "Lo I am with you always, even unto the end of time." His promise is true, he is with you right now outside of the closet, and if you ran into the closet He would go with you. The spirit of God dwells in you and his job is to illuminate things to you (teach you, make clear) as you study the Word and walk with Christ.

Don't fear, you are never alone. For a Christian that is an utter impossibility. Get involved at your church, teach the kids or get involved with the music program or find something else that you enjoy doing and do it there. Fellowship with those who you attend church with and you'll see that the Christian family would indeed miss you if you ever hid away. That is how you'll get out of the rut.

Don't be surprised if you fall into a rut. It happens to all of us, we are still human beings. Drop in here anytime and ask questions or just shoot the breeze. PM some of us... any of us. We're available to you and love answering questions and being in fellowship with you. Talk to your pastor (I'm sure someone has said this already, but I haven't read all the replies yet) I'm sure he'll be able to help you out, that is what he is there for. To shepherd you, to teach you and to counsel you. Stop by any time!!

 

[daveleau]

i dont know why you wrote or listened.

While it may not be obvious to you (it wasn't to me when I was 15), there are people all around you, both here, and in the flesh at home and at church, that care about you a lot. Why'd we write? Because we care about you and because you are special (in a good way ). We want you to feel at home and make friends. That's why we are here- to do the same thing- feel comfortable and make friends.

As RED said above, I am only an IM, PM or email away.

It was good talking with you, Prince NewLite.

 

[OracleX]

(btw, i was going to ask this at camp but once again im me...is this what the song " brokeness, brokeness is what i need. brokeness, brokeness, is what you want for me" means? i never got why someone would want to feel brokeness. now it seems to make some sence...)

Brokeness ... the way I look at this is being placed in to the Lords hands to be molded and crafted in His image. Christ is the only one who can put a broken life back together. The reason why some people pray for brokeness is because there are things in our life that need to be broken. There are things that do not belong and when Christ breaks us down and rebuilds us, the things that do not belong are done away with. Imagery really. Like a pot that was dedicated to holding garbage being broken and built in to beautiful vessal filled with the Spirit.

 

[newlite]

If you hid in a closet you would be missed. But more than that you would miss out. There is so much that Christ wants to do for you now. So many ways that He will bless you, all you have to do is remain obedient. Especially when you see those around you who are not.

im not really sure of anything right now. i normally am always second. second to follow the guy ahead of me. then if i srew up i can atleast not be the only one. i read the bible. all my life ive grown up like a chirstain. but now that im one, i really want to do whats right. im not sure what is. the bible can be tooken serveral ways. and when i hear someone debating what i thought all my life (life theres a god) doubts and questions come and i wonder wiether the truth ive always held on to is really true. i know god exists. i always did. but how can i follow him when i dont know what to do? i follow other ppl. but most condirdect im reading and what im thinking to mean in the bible. i just dont really know what to do, and since i dont want to follow the wrong way again im doing nothing and its killing me right now. im at the fork. which way? both seem wrong...

God is with you. Jesus made a promise before He returned to sit on the right-hand of the Father. He said, "Lo I am with you always, even unto the end of time." His promise is true, he is with you right now outside of the closet, and if you ran into the closet He would go with you. The spirit of God dwells in you and his job is to illuminate things to you (teach you, make clear) as you study the Word and walk with Christ.

i know. but sometimes i feel hes hiding. i dont know why. ive read the bible. i believe it. i know hes here. sometimes i just wonder where though. *[as for "mabey hes waiting for me in the closet" thats supose to me mabey hes hiding from the world. mabey its tearing him up. mabey hes in there for the same reason i want to be.] i know this aint true. but some times its like he is.

Don't fear, you are never alone. For a Christian that is an utter impossibility. Get involved at your church, teach the kids or get involved with the music program or find something else that you enjoy doing and do it there. Fellowship with those who you attend church with and you'll see that the Christian family would indeed miss you if you ever hid away. That is how you'll get out of the rut.

i want to. i really do. but once again i cant. theres a forcefield somewhere. i dont know what it is, why its there, or if it will dissapper one day. its always holding me back. the spirits willing but the flesh is weak. i think it might be that to keep me alive and in this fake state i was, i would shield myself from everything. i stopped talking to ppl. i kept all my feelings inside. it was burning inside me. but i didnt want anybody to know. my life was srewed up enough. now i want to just pour out myself. let everything go. but i somehow cant. its that protective forcefield. i cant over come it yet. i want to but i cant. im traped in my head and cant do nothing...

i want to become a camp counsuler. ive said this many times. i thought this was what god wanted. i thought i finnally understood it. why i got depressed. why i wanted to kill myself. why i learned to lie to myself to feel better. why i was back. why i was like this. why everything happened. im lost. im confused. everything i thought is all wrong. i dont know anything...i was going to help ppl. i want to. thats my purpose. but i cant. i need help. i need someone to talk to. i need something. i want to help but i cant. i want to do stuff but i cant. i have no skills. i have no hobbies. i thought i knew what i had to do. i dont.

Don't be surprised if you fall into a rut. It happens to all of us, we are still human beings. Drop in here anytime and ask questions or just shoot the breeze. PM some of us... any of us. We're available to you and love answering questions and being in fellowship with you.

*[i need a shovel. i know i need to ask. we ppl see my car in it, why dont they stop and help? why cant they see my car? i see it some how painted it invisable. i can see it. no one else can. i cant ask for a shovel. cuz no one can see. and once again, ill look dumb to ask for something im in dying need of but no one can see and asking shows my car im hiding so how do i explain?]

it was so hard for me to bring myself to make this or the other topic. i finnally did when i reached my low again. every time i post in here i feel guilty. im thinking all i want is a higher post count or another blessing or attention or something. its like i just want a topic of mine to last longer and actually reach a record 3 pages. i dont know. i never add ppl to msn. i never ask ppl for e-mail addresses (i really hate myself for this cuz i didnt ask for my counsulers one because i was now "fine"). i never e-mail or phone ppl. i dont know why. mabey i think im not worthy or ill make a fool of myself. mabey its cuz i think its all a prank or the person will hate me for it. i dont know. but i never do.

at camp, i finnally ask a consuler if i could use a bit of duct tape. he rudly said no and give me a "your a loser" look. i was suprized. christain? it took me 3 days to build up enough confidence to ask one simple question and he killed it in 1 sharp word and a look. if that wasnt enough i asked again to another counsuler. same thing. they might of thought they were funny or just didnt notice how the hurt me, but twice? in one week? and chirstains? the might as well pushed me off the cliff. they pretty much did. i finnally asked, and was shot down twice. i gave up, and that was the end once again of asking anyone. that my life...

Talk to your pastor (I'm sure someone has said this already, but I haven't read all the replies yet) I'm sure he'll be able to help you out, that is what he is there for. To shepherd you, to teach you and to counsel you. Stop by any time!!

once again, i just cant. i dont know why. i was going to ask questions to help someone else. but when i finnally brought myself to do it, i just shut down close to him and walked away feeling like an idiot. i just cant stand it. all my life thats all ive been called. im finnally starting to believe it. that the problem last time i want to kill myself...this time...

*i often speak in smilies, simalies, metaphors and other ways to talk about how i feel. i dont know how to explain my feeling. i never do. this is the only way i can say how im feeling. hence the car, closet, gods in the closet and other things here...

 

[newlite]

A prayer Closet!

Filled with comforatble clothes and good memorys

its little things like this that make me smilie. easy things i can always remember. understand. thanks for this post. i dont know why but i love it.

btw, before i always retreated to my corner (corner of no understanding. i went here for alot of other reasons. it was the corner in my mind i could run to and just be alone.

now i think my corners going to be replaced by my closet. my closet "Filled with comforatble clothes and good memorys"