Chit Chat (8)

[birdie29]

I used to listen to steve brown to go to sleep...

 

[birdie29]

Hugs for you birdie, it is very hard to be alone a lot...((((((((hugs))))))).

yes it is... I am better at it sometimes than others... I have two friends here close by.. One male one female. I don't spend a lot of time with the female friend when I'm struggling emotionally, she has severe depression herself and I find her oldest daughter very hard to take. ... my male friend is better for that as he sometimes has the emotional structure of stone (lol) ... however, he was impatient with me today because I was still unbathed at 1:30 when I knew he was going to come by... He did stop by for a while but left early because he didn't want my germs. so here i sit. .. I don't really blame him but I would have felt better if he would have sat around with me all day. I think God figured I needed some alone time.

 

[nChrist]

I'm going to read some on the forum, make a few posts, watch the news, and think about some rest. Everyone have a great weekend.

 

[angelwind]

yes it is... I am better at it sometimes than others... I have two friends here close by.. One male one female. I don't spend a lot of time with the female friend when I'm struggling emotionally, she has severe depression herself and I find her oldest daughter very hard to take. ... my male friend is better for that as he sometimes has the emotional structure of stone (lol) ... however, he was impatient with me today because I was still unbathed at 1:30 when I knew he was going to come by... He did stop by for a while but left early because he didn't want my germs. so here i sit. .. I don't really blame him but I would have felt better if he would have sat around with me all day. I think God figured I needed some alone time.

Well, I was thinking about you needing to boil your bath water...hmmmm...that is really tough, during winter and you say you have a cold. Not bathing would not bother me...but the cold germs might scare me off...I get sick easily. Talking by phone can be encouraging...a friend of mine and I can spend 2 + hours chatting by phone.
Depression is hard no matter what we do...I have been there.

 

[angelwind]

We are thiking of driving to our son's place for the coming weekend...plans are not firm yet, I really miss him, we could see the grandson play basketball and watch the superbowl together...I am tired today,...the drive sounds hard, but tomorrow I won't be so tired.

 

[birdie29]

watching the super bowl as a family would be nice. (and I don't even watch football)

 

[birdie29]

Well, I was thinking about you needing to boil your bath water...hmmmm...that is really tough, during winter and you say you have a cold. Not bathing would not bother me...but the cold germs might scare me off...I get sick easily. Talking by phone can be encouraging...a friend of mine and I can spend 2 + hours chatting by phone.
Depression is hard no matter what we do...I have been there.

yea, my female friend had a stroke a few years back... but even before that she was on depression meds..(I personally believe the meds caused the stroke). she has a failing second marriage, a young child and an older girl (early 20's) living with her... They've kicked the husband out of his house now and she gets to live there for two years... don't know what happens after that... the situation is just too much for me when I don't feel good. The older daughter is incredibly self centered and my friend can hardly communicate sometimes... She was only 30-something when she had the stroke and now she can't work... They had gotten married because she was pregnant one year earlier..... I feel sorry for the guy actually... He has (had) a nice house. I don't begrudge my friend a place to stay but I wish things were different for the two of them...

ps.. im a tad emotional when I'm feverish. lol.. I'm better off alone if I can make it...

 

[birdie29]

guys, I think it's time for me to make some changes in the way I handle things. I want to start going back to church.. I work most weekends and it will be hard. However, I believe change is in the air... there is a really nice church up the street from me that I have been to a couple times... I would like to go a lot more often. The pastor is a woman, and I have always thought I would be better off under the leadership of a man... I want to settle into a church, so I don't want to go testing a bunch of churches out to see what I think.. Mostly cause I don't know what I think. lol...

any thoughts?

 

[angelwind]

guys, I think it's time for me to make some changes in the way I handle things. I want to start going back to church.. I work most weekends and it will be hard. However, I believe change is in the air... there is a really nice church up the street from me that I have been to a couple times... I would like to go a lot more often. The pastor is a woman, and I have always thought I would be better off under the leadership of a man... I want to settle into a church, so I don't want to go testing a bunch of churches out to see what I think.. Mostly cause I don't know what I think. lol...

any thoughts?

Ok...I will stick my neck out here. I do not believe Scripture teaches us to let or have women as pastors...they are not supposed to be in authority over men...I could not go to that church. This is a hot potatoe of a stand, but it is where I humbly stand.

 

[birdie29]

Ok...I will stick my neck out here. I do not believe Scripture teaches us to let or have women as pastors...they are not supposed to be in authority over men...I could not go to that church. This is a hot potatoe of a stand, but it is where I humbly stand.

That is exactly the way I used to feel... but my last male pastor is so busy building his big name that he can't be bothered to do funerals anymore. 'The guy before that seemed to like his pretty young members better than anyone else.... my cousin the man preacher sinks into depression after a divorce and marry's a female pastor... he's now an associate pastor of a non denominational church while she leads another.... My absolutes are falling apart. You can stick your neck out...
THis church helped me out of a bad time a number of years ago with a huge donation. They never knew it was me they were helping... It went through my son's grade school nurse. It was the ladies group. I've always thought I would go there when I started back again. I visited and to my shock found a woman in a football jersey heading the church. She came over and said hello to me before church... I honestly did not know until she started preaching that she was the pastor... I liked her... She has a very gentle non-pushy style.

 

[angelwind]

That is exactly the way I used to feel... but my last male pastor is so busy building his big name that he can't be bothered to do funerals anymore. 'The guy before that seemed to like his pretty young members better than anyone else.... my cousin the man preacher sinks into depression after a divorce and marry's a female pastor... he's now an associate pastor of a non denominational church while she leads another.... My absolutes are falling apart. You can stick your neck out...
THis church helped me out of a bad time a number of years ago with a huge donation. They never knew it was me they were helping... It went through my son's grade school nurse. It was the ladies group. I've always thought I would go there when I started back again. I visited and to my shock found a woman in a football jersey heading the church. She came over and said hello to me before church... I honestly did not know until she started preaching that she was the pastor... I liked her... She has a very gentle non-pushy style.

I see your problem...but I still try to stick more to scripture's teaching than to personal experience. I am trying to find a church too and it is difficult with my health problems...then I pay attention to what I hear in the pulpit...many churches are "user" friendly but not feeding the flock the gospel...at all. It is just what can I do for you or what can you do for us. Very man centered.

 

[birdie29]

I see your problem...but I still try to stick more to scripture's teaching than to personal experience. I am trying to find a church too and it is difficult with my health problems...then I pay attention to what I hear in the pulpit...many churches are "user" friendly but not feeding the flock the gospel...at all. It is just what can I do for you or what can you do for us. Very man centered.

This one seems real.. they have a small modern music thing... a fellowship breakfast once a month during the service (they pull out the pews and insert tables and chairs. there are long term members who have been there longer than her... they seem to accept her... I live in a military area so there is that too. She is late 30's or early 40's I think. Her daughter seems to be around 11. There is a board of deacons so she doesn't have absolute power....Just a regular congregation... some of the members are hurting more than others... One family lost two children during a car accident on a family vaca... Had to watch it happen. how that must of hurt. I think I may have been there on the anniversary of that during one of my visits because I remember them talking about it and it seemed to be with permission. I am thinking I may just go ahead and plan on attending for a while... I'm not doing anything else and they are soooo non pushy. I just don't like the pushiness you get sometimes. I know it is well meant but I want to come back because I wanted to not because someone guilted me into it.

Sometimes (in the past) my christian walk has been more about me convincing others that I was a christian than me just trusting God. I so don't want it to be like that this time... DOES THAT MAKE ANY SINCE AT ALL??? I just want to get started being around others again. They have a ladies quilting group that I think I might want to join. (lol, tell my 20 year old self that I just said that... lol)

 

[angelwind]

This one seems real.. they have a small modern music thing... a fellowship breakfast once a month during the service (they pull out the pews and insert tables and chairs. there are long term members who have been there longer than her... they seem to accept her... I live in a military area so there is that too. She is late 30's or early 40's I think. Her daughter seems to be around 11. There is a board of deacons so she doesn't have absolute power....Just a regular congregation... some of the members are hurting more than others... One family lost two children during a car accident on a family vaca... Had to watch it happen. how that must of hurt. I think I may have been there on the anniversary of that during one of my visits because I remember them talking about it and it seemed to be with permission. I am thinking I may just go ahead and plan on attending for a while... I'm not doing anything else and they are soooo non pushy. I just don't like the pushiness you get sometimes. I know it is well meant but I want to come back because I wanted to not because someone guilted me into it.

Sometimes (in the past) my christian walk has been more about me convincing others that I was a christian than me just trusting God. I so don't want it to be like that this time... DOES THAT MAKE ANY SINCE AT ALL??? I just want to get started being around others again. They have a ladies quilting group that I think I might want to join. (lol, tell my 20 year old self that I just said that... lol)

Yes, it makes sense,,,you may outgrow the church, but it will be a start for you. I have been put off by the "pushy" stuff too.

The Lord has moved me through several phases in my walk with Him...as I learned more the churches changed.

 

[servant of Merciful Love]

The quilting group would be a fun activity Connie

After doing my chores, I am off to the pharmacy to get my med refilled.
It is too cold to walk today so I will play with Penny inside when I get back, and hop on the treadmill for 30 minutes.

Yesterday I blew my diet ; my 'treats' the night before with dinner out set off cravings and I caved

But today is another day.... and through the grace of God, my weight was still down

BBL God bless

 

[angelwind]

The quilting group would be a fun activity Connie

After doing my chores, I am off to the pharmacy to get my med refilled.
It is too cold to walk today so I will play with Penny inside when I get back, and hop on the treadmill for 30 minutes.

Yesterday I blew my diet ; my 'treats' the night before with dinner out set off cravings and I caved

But today is another day.... and through the grace of God, my weight was still down

BBL God bless

Today IS another day...I am back on my diet too...which means smaller portions for me. Don't know how long it will last tho.

 

[servant of Merciful Love]

Today IS another day...I am back on my diet too...which means smaller portions for me. Don't know how long it will last tho.

sis
That is something I must be more attuned to as well.
I am good at cutting servings at the restaurants, but at home I have a wee bit more than I should but we must take credit for every effort taken!

I got to the pharmacy and just got off the treadmill (35min/3.5mph with an incline); bebopping it to Def Lepard again

Now I am having a lite lunch of a few raw carrots, lentils and brown rice, and a chicken thigh

I find if I have cut veggies available, and pre-cook lentils and brown rice, I am not as likely to open a box of crackers etc

Have a nice afternoon

 

[angelwind]

sis
That is something I must be more attuned to as well.
I am good at cutting servings at the restaurants, but at home I have a wee bit more than I should but we must take credit for every effort taken!

I got to the pharmacy and just got off the treadmill (35min/3.5mph with an incline); bebopping it to Def Lepard again

Now I am having a lite lunch of a few raw carrots, lentils and brown rice, and a chicken thigh

I find if I have cut veggies available, and pre-cook lentils and brown rice, I am not as likely to open a box of crackers etc

Have a nice afternoon

Your best diet is very similar to mine...yes, your crackers would not be a good food for you...mine weakness is tortilla chips "restaurant style". Sometimes I make my own...we have 2 restaurants we like that serve yummy ones. all you can eat...

My joints are hurting so bad now, I must limit exercise and standing...I sure miss the exercise, but I still can walk. Plus, for some reason, I just feel crummy, no matter what I do.

 

[servant of Merciful Love]

Awww I'm sorry Shirley

Praying for your relief

 

[angelwind]

Awww I'm sorry Shirley

Praying for your relief

Thanks Gail, I have felt bad for so long, I don't know what normal would be anymore...it is harder this winter for some reason...but, I am here and not really depressed, just always dealing with a lot of fatigue and other issues with being 66.

 

[servant of Merciful Love]

You are doing fairly well then, considering....and you are still 65 ...is there a birthday coming soon?