Every time I get into a relationship, the man turns out to be a serial cheater. Tonight I attended a wedding and caught the bouquet. The only thought in my head was that I couldn't imagine being married again and going through that much pain. Please pray for God to heal my broken heart. I feel now that I have nothing to give, no gifts left to share. All I want is to have the heart of service that I once had before it was ripped from my chest. I don't have any ambition anymore. I don't dream anymore. I pray for everyone around me to succeed but don't care if i do or see any beauty in the world around me. It's like I'm standing still while the rest of the world moves on. I can't climb out of this and I know God doesn't want me to be this way. My faith in God hasn't failed and I still serve, but there is no joy anymore. The years of heartbreak have taken their toll.
