cant sleep.

[mala]

i've been dealing with severe depression for a few years now
i honestly can't recall the last time i had a day where i was actually happy without being constantly depressed.

honestly i just am feeling like sleeping now for a long long time.
whats sad though is that i cant seem to get exhausted anymore these days.
i run and i'm fine. i work all day and i'm fine....i dont understand why.

looking at what i wrote this sounds stupid. sorry just felt like posting something

 

[chaoticfirefly]

Depression is a monster and I'm sorry you've been feeling like this

There are many ways on battling it:
Talk therapy. I suggest seeing someone, because it does help to just let it all out.
Meditation.
Running and exercising in general is supposed to help as well.
Medication if you think you need it. With those, it takes trial and error and about a month.
Teas. St John's Warts is supposed to be effective. As well as general teas.
Petting an animal. (personal preference to be honest. my cat makes me feel happier)
Talking to a friend. Like above, just talking can really help.
Changing your diet. What you intake can really affect your moods too. Especially if you're not getting enough protein.
Sunlight. This is one of the biggest factors. Are you getting enough?
Lavender is supposed to also help with relaxation.

These are just a few.

As for sleep, take a warm bath if possible, there is a melatonin drink now that's supposed to help, called Neuro Sleep. Don't lay in bed, get up and do something else (non stimulating. read a boring book or watch a boring documentary) until you feel sleepy and then lay back down, or do deep breathing exercises. If this persists, I really recommend seeing someone about it because insomnia is a side effect of depression, and the depression part does need to be dealt with.

It's good you're reaching out now. Maybe others have better advice to offer but these are the things I can think of off the top of my head.

good luck.