Can't seem to leave my problems in God's Hands

[winterbluebells]

I pray in the morning, then I will leave things to God, but I find it hard. I keep having to tell myself it's in God's Hands. Then someone will speak and I'll be in the middle of thinking it, and then I'll reply before thinking it, and then I'll be asking for forgiveness. I think it's part of my OCD, I get horrible blasphemous thoughts. I used to make my urges go away by tapping and physical obsessions, but now it's come to my MIND, and I could stop tapping, but I can't stop the thoughts! But my family don't know and I can't seem to tell them so I can't see my GP because I don't think he'll keep it anonymous.

 

[Criada]

I think GPs have to keep things confidential if you ask them to, sweetie.
Are you getting any help with your OCD?

 

[winterbluebells]

Not for people my age. I'm not getting any help, because I won't go to my GP.

 

[Coralie]

Not for people my age.

This isn't true: Young people – health and personal

"If you're under 16, you have the right to a confidential consultation with a doctor, provided you make it clear that you do not want your parents to be told. However, your doctor can refuse to discuss the matter if they are unwilling to accept your request for confidentiality. If you're aged 16 and above, you have the right to confidential advice and treatment."

I'm not getting any help, because I won't go to my GP.

This makes me sad, winterbluebells--I hate to think of you suffering like this when you are perfectly entitled, and have perfect access, to confidential treatment.

If you don't go to your GP, or get help some other way, there's no telling how much longer you'll suffer in this way. I really, really hope you change your mind.



Praying for you sister.

 

[Criada]

I don't know how old you are or what country you are in, so I can't be sure... certainly in Britain you are entitled to ask for confidentiality.
If you aren't comfortable with that, is there perhaps a school counselor you could discuss things with?

 

[RuthD]

All doctors have to be confidential. I'm soryy you are suffering so much with this. Counselors also have to he confidential. Maybe you have some school counselors you can see or a pastor. If you can't trust any of them that would be extra hard. If you have a good Christian friend you may also want to talk to her about it, if you can. One thing you can do for sure is to keep praying about this. Talk to Jesus and keep talking to him, too. I hope you will keep posting here. God bless.

 

[winterbluebells]

But I just can't - I emailed my GP and they said that it depended on the case. But I don't know for sure, so I feel I can't risk it. They left me a number to call to discuss it further but I can't bring myself to call, so how would I ever get to my GP? It's too scary. I don't have a Christian friend to talk to.

 

[Coralie]

But I just can't - I emailed my GP and they said that it depended on the case. But I don't know for sure, so I feel I can't risk it. They left me a number to call to discuss it further but I can't bring myself to call, so how would I ever get to my GP? It's too scary. I don't have a Christian friend to talk to.

Winterbluebells, please understand: the longer you wait to talk to someone, the worse and worse you're going to get. If you don't talk to a doctor, things could get really, really bad. To the point where you can no longer hide it from your family.

If you choose not to talk to someone, you're choosing to get more and more ill, more and more miserable. You could even end up in hospital if things get too bad.

I know you don't want that. So please, please, please just phone the number.

Just phone them and discuss it. It can't hurt to discuss it.

The reason they say "it depends on the case" is because they don't know what you're going to say to them yet.

They're worried you're going to say "well I've been selling heroin to schoolchildren" and then they HAVE to tell the police, know what I mean?

The fact is, you're suffering with an illness, you're not a crack dealer or a pornography smuggler or anything like that. You have nothing to be ashamed of; you just need assistance with something that's really making your life impossible and miserable.

As long as you choose not to talk about your problems, you're giving your illness the permission to make you feel worse and worse. If you choose that, that's your choice and you're entitled to it; but you also need to realise that your life, from now on, is going to get worse and worse.

I don't want that for you and neither does anyone else here. You are my sister in Christ and I love you! I'm saying a prayer for you right now.

 

[Autumnleaf]

But I just can't - I emailed my GP and they said that it depended on the case. But I don't know for sure, so I feel I can't risk it. They left me a number to call to discuss it further but I can't bring myself to call, so how would I ever get to my GP? It's too scary. I don't have a Christian friend to talk to.

Can you call and be anonymous about it?

 

[winterbluebells]

I find this hard to understand.
Does it mean:
Don't DELIBERATELY lie about someone doing wrong? Or does it mean accidently as well? :s Because my cat got put down today and I messaged my friend and she replied with ":/." I thought it was really unsupportive so to show her I replied with "Thanks. :/" Only it turned out she didn't realise what "put to sleep," meant. So I was I wrongly accusing her? Was I sinning? :s

 

[winterbluebells]

Whoops - this is in the wrong place!! ^

I could call and be anonymous but I'm just too scared. :'s