Cannot cope with anything

[emokid1]

Im 16. I do all sorts of things to try and cope as well as try and be a christian but i dont think im making a very good christian at this stage. I am a self harmer and I hate myself so much. I am really confused and suicidal at times. I hate even looking at myself. And then there is the past stuff to deal with. it all seems way too much.

Samantha

 

[emokid1]

oh and im also bulimic just to add to the self destructive stuff I do. But i cant seem to stop no matter how much i try.

 

[StrengthFromChrist]

Hi Samantha. I'm very sorry for what you are going through. I've struggled with severe depression also. Sometimes I would starve myself to hurt myself. Hearing your post reminds me a lot of how I felt. It's so hard to live with and makes it hard to function. I don't think at all that you are being a bad christian. Even good christian people have hardships and struggles. God doesn't want you to feel ashamed. He wants your struggles to bring you closer to him.

I think that's how I started to heal...was letting go of the shame and guilt. I just decided one day that I was no longer going to feel like a bad person. I realized that I was viewing myself through other's opinions of me that were false. Other people wanted me to feel bad about myself...and they succeeded. And I was being too hard on myself for mistakes. At one time, I felt the same way...I worried that I would never get better. But there is light at the end of the tunnel. You've got many years ahead of you!

I'm praying for you!

 

[joey_downunder]

Being a teenager is hard enough, even for teenagers who never have any severe self-esteem issues like you are feeling right now! You have come here for a reason.

This is a good christian webpage for you right now. I Hate Myself! Compassionate help when you hate yourself or have low self-esteem

Please pray to God to lead you to the links that you need to read the most.

Lord, I pray that my little christian sister is especially touched and comforted by what you show her, and that you continue to remind her that you are there for her always.

[Jesus said] "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30)

 

[emokid1]

Thankyou for praying for me. And i will check out that webpage.

i really hope there is an answer. I have destroyed all the mirrors in the house so i dont have to look at myself. I must be really wierd.