I've always believed in God (well, as soon as I was old enough to believe in anything..lol). I always thought I was a Christian (believed Jesus died and resurrected and all that), but I never realized truely what salvation really was until about 7 or so years ago, at which point I accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior.
But there's a problem.
I have some issue going on. When things don't go the way I think they should, I fly off the handle (mostly with my family). My mom actually described it the other day as acting like a 2-year-old. "You'd never know there was a zero behind that two" is the comment she made.
I have anger management issues. I try to pray quite a bit and as soon as I know I've done something wrong, I ask God to forgive me for it. I even go as far as, when people think I've done something wrong but I don't think it was wrong, I will ask God to let me know on no uncertain terms if it was wrong or not so that if it was wrong I might repent of it.
And when I ask if what I did was wrong and get the feeling that it was not wrong, people just label it wrong, I can't resist thinking: "Is it safe for me to believe that this is coming from God, or is it just one of Satan's outragious lies?"
Also, praying sometimes seems somewhat repetitive, and I wonder if my all but memorized bedtime prayer bores God by now.
Any advice?
But there's a problem.
I have some issue going on. When things don't go the way I think they should, I fly off the handle (mostly with my family). My mom actually described it the other day as acting like a 2-year-old. "You'd never know there was a zero behind that two" is the comment she made.
I have anger management issues. I try to pray quite a bit and as soon as I know I've done something wrong, I ask God to forgive me for it. I even go as far as, when people think I've done something wrong but I don't think it was wrong, I will ask God to let me know on no uncertain terms if it was wrong or not so that if it was wrong I might repent of it.
And when I ask if what I did was wrong and get the feeling that it was not wrong, people just label it wrong, I can't resist thinking: "Is it safe for me to believe that this is coming from God, or is it just one of Satan's outragious lies?"
Also, praying sometimes seems somewhat repetitive, and I wonder if my all but memorized bedtime prayer bores God by now.
Any advice?