Hello everyone,
2 years ago I had this problem:
Help me, I don't know what to do, extreme ocd!
And now it's totally gotten out of hand. I became sick for a few months and therefore forgot about this promise and just kept buying stuff. Actually I cannot recall what happened anymore, it was just so long ago. And I was lucky that because of covid I didn't had to go to parties and buy presents. But now covid is gone and parties are happening again. But that's not what it is about. I just want to be free of this problem. This promise I so called made. I need to throw away my stuff I've bought that I accumulated over 2 years or else I cannot continue with my life. I feel 2 years are already thrown away. I even made an additional vague promise that I cannot cut my hair! I counted a haircut as stuff too for some reason. I did a haircut once (it was too long) but it had to grown to the same original length again because of the promise. I hope it's not too confusing with what I'm trying to say. Basically it's that I have to go all the way back, sort of time travelling, to 2019, throw everything away what I have bought these 2 years and fulfill my promise, which is just a simple prayer, and then I'm done. I know it sounds insane, but I am very sick, my ocd has gotten so out of hand.
Can someone please help me and read my post in the link very carefully to understand what happened 2 years ago. I'm so scared for the consequence and it's keeping me bound for more than 2 years now. I always had ocd my whole life, but this is the first time in my life that my ocd has gotten so worse. I just want to make a new start this year and be free of this problem that started 2 years ago.
2 years ago I had this problem:
Help me, I don't know what to do, extreme ocd!
And now it's totally gotten out of hand. I became sick for a few months and therefore forgot about this promise and just kept buying stuff. Actually I cannot recall what happened anymore, it was just so long ago. And I was lucky that because of covid I didn't had to go to parties and buy presents. But now covid is gone and parties are happening again. But that's not what it is about. I just want to be free of this problem. This promise I so called made. I need to throw away my stuff I've bought that I accumulated over 2 years or else I cannot continue with my life. I feel 2 years are already thrown away. I even made an additional vague promise that I cannot cut my hair! I counted a haircut as stuff too for some reason. I did a haircut once (it was too long) but it had to grown to the same original length again because of the promise. I hope it's not too confusing with what I'm trying to say. Basically it's that I have to go all the way back, sort of time travelling, to 2019, throw everything away what I have bought these 2 years and fulfill my promise, which is just a simple prayer, and then I'm done. I know it sounds insane, but I am very sick, my ocd has gotten so out of hand.
Can someone please help me and read my post in the link very carefully to understand what happened 2 years ago. I'm so scared for the consequence and it's keeping me bound for more than 2 years now. I always had ocd my whole life, but this is the first time in my life that my ocd has gotten so worse. I just want to make a new start this year and be free of this problem that started 2 years ago.
