can health be an idol?

[Ribosome]

i'm severely ill. this is one of those diseases that doesnt kill, but makes you suffer immensely and daily. it affects the physical body, causing me a great deal of physical pain, as well as the brain and gives me great deal of mental torment (not depression). i've been ill like this for over 2.5 years now, my disease is constant and daily. i've been without any hint of any temporary easing or relief for 1.5 of those years... agony every second... literally. during that time i was severely suicidal because the pain was unbearable, and broke everything in me. ive had improvement this year, but it lasted about 3 months before things got bad again, although i do get little windows of relief about 5% of my time now, but they go by quick.

i cant imagine living like this for the rest of my life, so i pray all the time for god to heal me. i want to be healed so much, i just dont want to feel soooo much pain ALL the time. obviously i think about my suffering all the time because it is so overwhelming and consuming, and all i want is relief!

is my health an idol because thats something i really really want and need? im forced to think about it all the time by the pain. i feel like i cant completely surrender myself to gods will if his will for me could be that i continue suffering like this or worse all my life. i just cant imagine suffering like this for the rest of my life... there MUST be a way out!!

 

[JC_Crust]

i'm severely ill. this is one of those diseases that doesnt kill, but makes you suffer immensely and daily. it affects the physical body, causing me a great deal of physical pain, as well as the brain and gives me great deal of mental torment (not depression). i've been ill like this for over 2.5 years now, my disease is constant and daily. i've been without any hint of any temporary easing or relief for 1.5 of those years... agony every second... literally. during that time i was severely suicidal because the pain was unbearable, and broke everything in me. ive had improvement this year, but it lasted about 3 months before things got bad again, although i do get little windows of relief about 5% of my time now, but they go by quick.

i cant imagine living like this for the rest of my life, so i pray all the time for god to heal me. i want to be healed so much, i just dont want to feel soooo much pain ALL the time. obviously i think about my suffering all the time because it is so overwhelming and consuming, and all i want is relief!

is my health an idol because thats something i really really want and need? im forced to think about it all the time by the pain. i feel like i cant completely surrender myself to gods will if his will for me could be that i continue suffering like this or worse all my life. i just cant imagine suffering like this for the rest of my life... there MUST be a way out!!

what disease is it? because it sounds like lyme disease and thats what my mom has had for most of my life and shes in constant intense pain. send it to me in a PM if you want.

 

[JC_Crust]

that didnt answer your question. no, health is not an idol.

 

[Criada]

God created us to be healthy, and desiring that is not in any way wrong.
Praying for you.

 

[Angeldove97]

It's hard to believe that you're only 23 and you're going through so much pain. I'm 25 and there are days where my back or knees are in such pain as I can not leave the bed--- I have to be honest, I worry sometimes what life is going to be like at age 50!

Yes, yes continue to pray for healing-- God at any moment may heal you, but even if He doesn't I pray you can find this situation as a way to learn to worship and praise God even though you are in so much pain.

You may want to closely study the book of Job-- your story reminds me of that book of the Old Testament. Perhaps you could find some inspiration in it to go on as well.

I will remember you in my prayers--- may the Lord bless you with healing or if He can not for some reason, bless you with the strength to get through this

 

[DrFrank]

Of course God does want to heal you but it is next to impossible for people who are severely ill,especially if they are in extreme pain,to develop the type of faith necessary for this type of miracle answer to prayer to take place.

Acts 14:9-10 (New King James Version)

9 This man heard Paul speaking. Paul, observing him intently and seeing that HE HAD FAITH TO BE HEALED, 10 said with a loud voice, “Stand up straight on your feet!” And he leaped and walked.

This is why the Holy Spirit gives the "gift of healing" to some ministers so that their extreme faith and ability to communicate with the Holy Spirit can act as a partial substitute for the person they are praying for.

Tragically there are some churches that teach that the Holy Spirit is either dead or too old to come to work which of course results in a total absence of miracles in their worship services.However you should, by making a series of phone calls, be able to locate a minister in your area who has been given the gift of healing.Then it's just a matter of going to his worship and/or prayer services.If you look up churches in your local Yellow Pages directory,see if there is a listing for "Charismatic" churches and start your phone calls to them first.