Can God Change My Heart? Does He still want to?

[reid.stady]

I feel like such a hypocrite all the time lately. I try to do all the right things, like going to church, reading my bible, helping others, etc. but I know that my heart isn't in it. I WANT to love Jesus, but I feel like I just have this constant nagging voice in the back of my head saying "you're such a hypocrite," and that things will never change. I guess I just feel like I'm too far down the path that it's not that God can't change me, but that He maybe doesn't want to anymore. Not for me at least.

I can get really judgmental and self-righteous sometimes, but the funny thing is that I can fully realize it, I can see that it's there. Has anyone else gotten to this point before of just complete discouragement, and had God rescue them out of it to an incredible love for Jesus again when they feel just too far gone? I'm not doing any blatant sins by any means, but I just feel like my heart is too cold, and I'm getting really discouraged. Please help?

*EDIT* What I'm really feeling toward God is that I'm like bi-polar in my relationship toward Him or something. Sometimes I genuinely feel and cry out to God saying "I want you, I love you! Please be my Father! Please tell me you love me and pick me up when I fall!" and then sometimes I just feel so self-sufficient and greedy and prideful, and I just hear this voice in my head saying what a hypocrite I am, I don't really love the Lord, and I really don't know what to believe. It's like, I look at the passage to the Laodiceans in Revelation 3, and I see that Jesus has such mercy on a church that is lukewarm, and He tells them that he loves them in spite of their lukewarmness and that they should repent, but what do you do when it seems like every time you try to "be zealous and repent" you just get this feeling that you're just this incredibly hypocrite and that you have no love for God in your heart and you never will? I just wish I had Jesus right next to me to tell me how I'm doing for five minutes...

*EDIT #2* Sorry for rambling so much, I hope I make at least a little bit of sense!

 

[toolite]

I feel like such a hypocrite all the time lately. I try to do all the right things, like going to church, reading my bible, helping others, etc. but I know that my heart isn't in it. I WANT to love Jesus, but I feel like I just have this constant nagging voice in the back of my head saying "you're such a hypocrite," and that things will never change. I guess I just feel like I'm too far down the path that it's not that God can't change me, but that He maybe doesn't want to anymore. Not for me at least.

I can get really judgmental and self-righteous sometimes, but the funny thing is that I can fully realize it, I can see that it's there. Has anyone else gotten to this point before of just complete discouragement, and had God rescue them out of it to an incredible love for Jesus again when they feel just too far gone? I'm not doing any blatant sins by any means, but I just feel like my heart is too cold, and I'm getting really discouraged. Please help?

God never stops loving you ever! Your spirit and flesh wars with one another everyday all day. Spirit being giving by God and flesh represents the enemy. The enemy is always going to be in ear you will never be able to stop that but, what you can do is continue to read your bible and build confidence in the Lord by trusting him on things you can or can not fix. Enemy distracts to keep you from your next level. When the enemy says your a hypocrite then you remind the enemy that God is working for you as well as in you and God works all things out.

Judgemental - I believe is a good one because we do it so quick and sometimes don't realize it. See we are born into sin and when we turn our lives over to God he takes the blinders off and begins to show us truth.. Do we like it no not all the time but, mature people deal with and move forward. God knows how to break you and He will.

All The Glory Belongs To God!

 

[NatalieJan777]

I feel like such a hypocrite all the time lately. I try to do all the right things, like going to church, reading my bible, helping others, etc. but I know that my heart isn't in it. I WANT to love Jesus, but I feel like I just have this constant nagging voice in the back of my head saying "you're such a hypocrite," and that things will never change. I guess I just feel like I'm too far down the path that it's not that God can't change me, but that He maybe doesn't want to anymore. Not for me at least.

I can get really judgmental and self-righteous sometimes, but the funny thing is that I can fully realize it, I can see that it's there. Has anyone else gotten to this point before of just complete discouragement, and had God rescue them out of it to an incredible love for Jesus again when they feel just too far gone? I'm not doing any blatant sins by any means, but I just feel like my heart is too cold, and I'm getting really discouraged. Please help?

*EDIT* What I'm really feeling toward God is that I'm like bi-polar in my relationship toward Him or something. Sometimes I genuinely feel and cry out to God saying "I want you, I love you! Please be my Father! Please tell me you love me and pick me up when I fall!" and then sometimes I just feel so self-sufficient and greedy and prideful, and I just hear this voice in my head saying what a hypocrite I am, I don't really love the Lord, and I really don't know what to believe. It's like, I look at the passage to the Laodiceans in Revelation 3, and I see that Jesus has such mercy on a church that is lukewarm, and He tells them that he loves them in spite of their lukewarmness and that they should repent, but what do you do when it seems like every time you try to "be zealous and repent" you just get this feeling that you're just this incredibly hypocrite and that you have no love for God in your heart and you never will? I just wish I had Jesus right next to me to tell me how I'm doing for five minutes...

*EDIT #2* Sorry for rambling so much, I hope I make at least a little bit of sense!

Sometimes, being still and waiting upon HIM is the answer we seek.

I will pray for you. A pastor once told me that hurting people hurt people and this is so very true. If you've gotten to a point where your relationships suffer due to your zeal for the Lord and the word of GOD, take a rest and give all your troubles to HIM. If you feel hypocritical sometimes it is probably because you are, seek HIS forgiveness and don't feel alone because you are not the only christian hypocrite walking this earth. We are all victims of hypocracy, but JESUS is your teacher and will teach you what you need to know to overcome your hypocracy. I know I may not be telling you what you want to hear right now, but I will pray for you.

Your sister in Christ Jesus,

Nat

Be still and know that HE IS GOD.

 

[stelow]

I think we all go through these ups and downs. Sometimes the downs stand out more and other times the ups stand out more. I have to battle against myself all the time, sometimes it feels like it's a loosing battle, but like Natalie said, we need to rest in Him; just wait without doing and He promises to renew our strength.

 

[flightofsevens]

I suggest reading Romans 6 & 7. I am in this same boat a lot. To be honest, about 4 months ago it was to the point where I almost had a breakdown because in my heart, I want to be perfect to God, I want to please Him in everything I do. But I can't. I CAN through Christ, because He promises that we can do anything through Him who gives us strength, but since the war between flesh and spirit is an everyday thing, it can be quite hard sometimes.

Don't think you're the only one who thinks you're the only one.

 

[suzybeezy]

Take courage that alot of this feel like this from time to time. Add to your prayers the desire that God will return your heart and give you a hunger and thirst that only he can quench.

This song came to mind when reading this:

YouTube - Keith Green Create in Me a Clean Heart

May you be blessed!

 

[bigstix701]

amen