Camhs appointment, panicking!!!

[Loopi]

Blegh. Just had the letter for my inital assesment come through. it was sent to my parents. Its on the 11th of may. they want my family there. what if they tell my family about the sexual abuse (my doc said he was gonna pass that info on!!!)? Why are my family needed there anyway!!!
And the appoint lasts an hour and a half!!! Im gonna go mad with someone poking in my head with my mum in the room for that long! and mums just gonna act like its all ok, blah blah blah. ARGH
blegh, i cant talk with mum in the room anyway, so im gonna waste that time when i could be in school. ive got my mock exams that week too, except i dont have an exam on that day! If i dont talk much with mum in the room will they give up on me? will they think i dont want help? or will they try harder? or what? Ive wanted this help so long, i know i need it, its gonna help me so much, just not with her there!!!!
Arg, am gonna burst into tears in a minute, i want this help so badly but i dont want it this way!!! I dont want my mum involved!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. *Cries*

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Well. Roll with it.

You have to have faith in the therapist and what they are doing.
You may struggle with complying with them, but you have to cooperate with them in order for their efforts to be effective.

So give the person a chance before you give up on what they're trying to do.

 

[Bevlina]

Just take it easy Honey, relax and just go with the flow. You don't have to talk with your Mum in the room. Just sit quietly. This may be a good thing really, you may see a side of your Mum you don't know. You may not. But, the best thing you can do is just relax. There is nothing to fear.
God said these words and believe me, they are true. "This too shall pass".

 

[Cat59]

CAMHS appts usually are quite long initially and usually you will get to see the assessor on your own for a while. As you are 14 and live with your family, they will be involved but often they will start off seeing you on your own or asking if you want some time on your own first.
They're pretty sensitive to issues that are difficult too.
Praying for you, that it'll all go well and you will be able to get the sort of help you need.

Cat

 

[Bevlina]

I'm praying too. This is such an important time.

 

[Loopi]

Thanks everyone, that means a lot. Im still freaking out about it, and i ended up hurting myself over it, i dunno, i guess its the fear of the unknown. Blegh, words seem to fail me atm, my heads so messed up and all over a stupid appointment >_<

 

[Bevlina]

You hit the nail right on the head! It's fear of the unknown. And, many times we become terrified about things we shouldn't have worried ourselves about.
Fear is a strange thing. Fear feeds on fear.
You know when you start to walk past a graveyard and begin to feel a little uncomfortable, then you walk faster and start to feel afraid, then you start to walk really fast and start to feel terrified, then you run screaming! And ... why? There was nothing to fear all the time! There was nothing there to frighten you.
The fear actually fed on the initial feeling of being a little afraid.
Emotions are a strange thing.