But Inside

[loveHIM_liveHIM]

Chestnut,
A gentle brown,
Rabbit, squirrel,
A schoolgirl's braids.

Nut brown,
A deep brown,
Luscious, full,
A piece of chocolate.

Ebony,
Captured midnight,
Rich, glossy,
So dark it burns.© JCO

 

[psycmajor]

This reminds me of UPS's ad campaign: The Power of Brown

 

[loveHIM_liveHIM]

hahaha

 

[loveHIM_liveHIM]

a dull ache deep inside
a longing, a need
a little hole that knows it will never be filled
no matter how full the heart

no matter how many things pile up
around the hole, hiding it
it will always be empty

it will always be there
though the piles confuse the viewer
making one think all is well
the one aching hole hides deep inside

one can feel its emptiness in moments of stillness
the hole realizes this and is content
for its destiny is to be unfilled

that little hole's been boarded up
forever to be an empty hurt
never to be remedied

it simply is and simply aches
simply longs and simply hurts
and is simply incomplete
for the one that completes it is gone
never to fill again

© JCO

 

[loveHIM_liveHIM]

Outside, the sun
Blazes
Furiosly
Ultraviolet rays
Seeping
Through the ozone

But inside
All is dark
All is quiet
So all is sad
And all is lonely

I sit in my desolate
Room
My barren
Soul
Looking for some hint
Of pervasive sunlight
To illuminate the darkness

But when I find none
I know my emptiness
Has been overlooked
And the sun
Has passed me by.

© JCO

 

[loveHIM_liveHIM]

destitute
she stands off to the side
surrounded by friends
she has never been
so alone

sobs
fill her chest
as she fights
to keep them
down

no one
understands
as she is stuck
in her own
world

wanting
to leave it behind
and be included
but she can't
escape

destitute
she stands off to the side
surrounded by friends
she has never been
so alone

© JCO

 

[loveHIM_liveHIM]

I have made a commitment
A commitment which, years from now,
I shall wish I never made

And yet I have--earnestly, deeply
Within my soul-self--committed myself
To solidarity, to hope and love,
A hope for a love,
A love unrequited

I have committed myself to a love eternal
A love I have pledged, consciously chosen
To never let end

I have decided to continue to love
To continue to care for the uncaring
I am committed to loving through all things
Though the loved will move on,
Unrealizing and so loving others.

But so is my fate
And having chosen it myself
Am committed to living it myself.

© JCO

 

[loveHIM_liveHIM]

i love you so much
it hurts
cutting,
scraping
my heart
to shreds,
layer
by
layer

i miss you so much
but you
throw my heart
on the ground,
trampeling
my soul
piece
by
piece

i need you so much
there's pain,
physically
wringing
the life out
of my heart,
drop
by
drop

i want you so much
i can't stand
to be near you,
with you
and yet
not have you
day
by
day

i love you so much...
i miss you so much...
i need you so much...
i want you so much...

Why did you hurt me so much?

© JCO