Bulemia

[MarlenaM]

Hi,

I just had my 30th birthday. I probably shouldn't be new to this topic on this forum, but I am. I don't like to talk about this, because to me if I don't talk about it, it doesn't exist. I have a 4 year old and a wonderful husband. I have gained and lost weight for as long as I can remember. In high school this began and it's been 10 ro 11 years since this began. I thought I had things under control, until I become stressed. As weird as this is, this is how I tolerate stress. It's a once in a while thing instead of all day every day. However when I am stressed it becomes a daily thing. Are there any others struggling with this? I still have 30lbs to loose and in my head, if I eat something I'm supposed to, well there's an easy way out. I know this is my choice, and I keep telling myself this has to stop. I do not want cancer or anything else associated with this. I want to be around for my family, as well as we want to have another baby next year. I want to teach my daughter a healthy lifestyle not one of bingeing and purging.

Any advice?

Thank you.
Marlena

 

[blessedmomof5]

Hi,

First can i say it is not a choice it is an illness, no one chooses to have bulima, ever, it just happens, something in the brain does it, not to sure what but never blame yourself, if it was that easy to stop you would.

also i think it is wonderful that you want to get better, that is a huge step to even acknowleging there is a problem....

now the hard part.... you need to get help, talk to someone , anyone. there is nothing to be ashamed about it.....
Denise

 

[amtvball4jesus]

i agree totally!!! it is an illness not a choice! i have mia too. it's not fun at all. i do it if i eat a lot, then blah! i have had mia since 2003 - 2004 and off and on since then.

*hugs*

~michelle~

 

[Surrender2Win]

Hi,

I just had my 30th birthday. I probably shouldn't be new to this topic on this forum, but I am. I don't like to talk about this, because to me if I don't talk about it, it doesn't exist. I have a 4 year old and a wonderful husband. I have gained and lost weight for as long as I can remember. In high school this began and it's been 10 ro 11 years since this began. I thought I had things under control, until I become stressed. As weird as this is, this is how I tolerate stress. It's a once in a while thing instead of all day every day. However when I am stressed it becomes a daily thing. Are there any others struggling with this? I still have 30lbs to loose and in my head, if I eat something I'm supposed to, well there's an easy way out. I know this is my choice, and I keep telling myself this has to stop. I do not want cancer or anything else associated with this. I want to be around for my family, as well as we want to have another baby next year. I want to teach my daughter a healthy lifestyle not one of bingeing and purging.

Any advice?

Thank you.
Marlena

Hi Marlena,

I can relate to when things feel stressful, my eating habits sometimes tend to slip into that ED mode...that is where I have learned that I have to really watch myself around stressful times and get help right away if I need to (and I have). Do you have any eating disorder groups in your area? Like OA, EDA or even a support group? They can really be beneficial, espeically the 12-step programs because 1) you have others who understand what you are going through and 2) through using the steps it teaches you how to live without using food as a source for coping.

It sounds like your thinking is moving in a healthy direction, where your thinking about life and how you want it and don't want it to go and what you want for your daughter. I'm saying a prayer for you right now.

God Bless,
Amanda

 

[MarlenaM]

Thank you all of you for your prayers and support. I don't know if there are support groups out here for this. I'm sure there are if I looked for them. I have always felt like I can do this on my own; if I make a big deal out of it then I think about it more and I do it more. I guess I have come to the realization that it is a big deal. Once I start in this mindset and start eating, I soon realize that I really don't want to be doing this anymore. It's not fun and I really am beginning to dislike it. I end up eating things that I don't like; just because I've already started so I have to finish. The good news is, that I am realizing all of this and know that I have to stop it.

Thank you again, for all of your prayers and posts! It is nice to not feel alone in this and to know that others struggle with this.

Thank you!
Marlena