Hey all,I just wanted to also introduce myself. I am new here, as you can see. I am not a gung-ho Christian, as of late, anyway. Actually, not for years. I was saved when I was 17..I did as much Bible study as time would allow..had as much interaction with as many Christians as I could. But, it was short lived....very short lived. Though, I was told by others, I have a call on my life, and I felt it also..I did not keep the faith and please God.
I was on my way to Christian college after graduation..but, I then put it as this. "You cannot bend a steel rod." Meaning, it was not long before I was doing what I wanted to do...not what God wanted. I guess it really is devastaing for some of us when, "you get off the milk, and on the meat."
Anyway, years of alcohol and drug use later, here I am..trying to find my way back into the fold. What really stresses me, is I am a divorcee..but, wait..it was not my fault...she was unfaithful..that is all I need to say about that right now, she was unfaithful. That really plays on my mind alot.
What I really mean to say, is please as you see this post, please say even the quickest of prayers..to help me find my nitch...to help me find God again. I know where to look, I know how to look...but, it is the feeling of acceptance that kills me.
I did go to a church last Sunday, but..I felt so lost and scared, I left before the Pastor even started service. People, please help me find the strength to look soley for Jesus. I need Him so bad. I know He has a high call on my life..I can feel it. I even felt it when I was doing as I pleased. Don't get me wrong, I still mess up, but..I don't want to anymore..sinning is no longer fun. When you hear "You reap what you sow." Let me tell you, it is oh so very, very true.
Enough of me now. I hope to have a great post next time. I also look forward to meeting any one of you on here. Thanks so much for your time. God Bless.
