so yeah i need help...
i have bipolar and others but i dont want to name them all. i am on meds and i have schizophrenic tendancies with my bipolar so i see things and hear things.
lately i have been having trouble keeping friends making friends, that stuff. i also have been cutting which is such an addiction for me...i stopped for about two years then i started back up recently. i fight with my family alot and sometimes i bang my head against the wall. the cops usually come to my house on a regular basis to restriane me. my hands are shaking so bad i cant draw which is like my favorite thing to do. i sleep on my parents floor because im scared stiff at night. my friends are jerks to me but i dont have the courage to stand up for myself. im paranoid that everyone is out to get me...im afraid of going outside alone because im afraid i'll be killed. i am afraid to eat grapes because im scared a spider will be in them. i have to keep my light on when i sleep in my own room because im afraid of the dark, and im afraid of being lost and forgotten.
i try to tell my doctor but he doesnt do much about it. he kind of rushes me, i know its because hes busy but, still i wish he'd listen. on top of that have been waiting since august to see him about all this, and he never returns my calls for help with my meds. i feel ignored by the only person who has some ideas to help me.
i want to change doctors but im in a mental health community where i cant....what am i supposed to do? i need help advice and prayers please!
i have bipolar and others but i dont want to name them all. i am on meds and i have schizophrenic tendancies with my bipolar so i see things and hear things.
lately i have been having trouble keeping friends making friends, that stuff. i also have been cutting which is such an addiction for me...i stopped for about two years then i started back up recently. i fight with my family alot and sometimes i bang my head against the wall. the cops usually come to my house on a regular basis to restriane me. my hands are shaking so bad i cant draw which is like my favorite thing to do. i sleep on my parents floor because im scared stiff at night. my friends are jerks to me but i dont have the courage to stand up for myself. im paranoid that everyone is out to get me...im afraid of going outside alone because im afraid i'll be killed. i am afraid to eat grapes because im scared a spider will be in them. i have to keep my light on when i sleep in my own room because im afraid of the dark, and im afraid of being lost and forgotten.
i try to tell my doctor but he doesnt do much about it. he kind of rushes me, i know its because hes busy but, still i wish he'd listen. on top of that have been waiting since august to see him about all this, and he never returns my calls for help with my meds. i feel ignored by the only person who has some ideas to help me.
i want to change doctors but im in a mental health community where i cant....what am i supposed to do? i need help advice and prayers please!
