OK, lately, everybody and their grandma has been singing the praises of speaker Beth Moore and her series of devotionals. My wife and I have been looking for some sort of study activity to do together in the evenings so I decided to pick one up. We got "Jesus. 90 Days With the One and Only"
We started and right off the bat I was TOTALLY creeped out by her constant expression for passionate love for Jesus. I was weirded out for two reasons.
1. It came off as man/woman love. I can quote some of it to you when I'm at home, but that's how it sounded. She mentions thinking he was beautiful in paintings etc. She speaks more passionate about him than I've probably said about my wife.
2. I don't feel a deep LOVE for Jesus. I can only feel these kinds of feelings for people I know and have lived with personally/phsyically. I have respect for Christ. I am thankful for Him. But is it LOVE? I don't sit idly dreaming of Him. (more like I feel how much I'm disappointing him by my lack of action, repentance, etc), I want to meet him in Heaven, to listen to what he has to say. But puppy dog affection? Never felt it. Not like the love I have for my wife, my kids, my dad, etc. If I tried to pretend to have it it would be completely phony.
So i was left after the first few day's studies feeling bummed out and a little less Christian. "Good for you miss goody two shoes, you have this super deep love for God, which apparently I don't." My wife felt the same way and we gave up on the book.
We started and right off the bat I was TOTALLY creeped out by her constant expression for passionate love for Jesus. I was weirded out for two reasons.
1. It came off as man/woman love. I can quote some of it to you when I'm at home, but that's how it sounded. She mentions thinking he was beautiful in paintings etc. She speaks more passionate about him than I've probably said about my wife.
2. I don't feel a deep LOVE for Jesus. I can only feel these kinds of feelings for people I know and have lived with personally/phsyically. I have respect for Christ. I am thankful for Him. But is it LOVE? I don't sit idly dreaming of Him. (more like I feel how much I'm disappointing him by my lack of action, repentance, etc), I want to meet him in Heaven, to listen to what he has to say. But puppy dog affection? Never felt it. Not like the love I have for my wife, my kids, my dad, etc. If I tried to pretend to have it it would be completely phony.
So i was left after the first few day's studies feeling bummed out and a little less Christian. "Good for you miss goody two shoes, you have this super deep love for God, which apparently I don't." My wife felt the same way and we gave up on the book.





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