Being Broken Down

[deg]

I have been moved very recently in this regard. Each successive sovereign breaking, though jarring and difficult, releases new measure of the Glory of Christ. Personally, I've come to a place which I should have been able to describe long ago. I am ashamed, truly, honestly ashamed of my self reliance, for the first time in my walk.

Lev 11:35
And every thing whereupon any part of their carcass falleth shall be unclean; whether it be oven, or ranges for pots, they shall be broken down: for they are unclean...

We know that according to the law our old members, the old wineskin, the old man, has been pronounced dead in the Heavenlies, while in the natural much of it is still at work in us. This carcass, the sinful man, has touched and "fallen upon" every realm of our person, from internal strength, to will, to mind, to body, to the very spirit itself. From salvation, the outerworking of the breaking down of the vessel began. Firstly, the spirit within was broken down and rebirthed, not mended. It was destroyed and begotten, not repaired. This exact process must play out in the rest of our person. Every aspect of our person goes through an ashaming process, an actual realization of it's uselessness. We are humbled by our failing self-reliance. We are disgraced repeatedly by our will. Indeed, our very faith is rags. We come to a place of dust and ash, where we finally see, through sovereign revelation, that we are broken. Fallen is another way to describe this new awareness, but I found that the Lord said to me "You are broken."

It was at this place where, for the first time, not just in word but in spirit and in truth, I saw that I am broken. Through and through. When that voice inside says "you're redeemed! You've really blessed this person. God sure has given you a lot..." ignore it. There is nothing here which is of any value, except that which isn't even mine.

"Yes, but..." you say. No. No buts. In me dwells no good thing. I'm not supposed to be a godly version of Deg. Deg is useless. I'm supposed to allow Him to work His Glory through His vessel, for His purposes with His Power. Even offering a yielded vessel is effected by His Hand. I have absolutely nothing to offer, for I am unclean, and must be broken down. That is my purpose: to be broken down.

Lord, please be swift and complete. I am sick of myself. I hate being here Lord, in this half-dead state. I hate the very flesh that I reside in. Please Father, come in fullness.
Amen.

 

[songz777]

Hi brov, yep I see where you are coming from ""Each successive sovereign breaking, though jarring and difficult, releases new measure of the Glory of Christ. """
its true that the more we are humbled and tested and tried, the more we get a clearer vision of the Lord.
Ive noticed that the more trials in life I have then the more i grow closere to Him.
Bless you John

 

[Endure2]

true...
we do not have anything to offer, all must be changed.
and we must come to a knowing that we are usless without his change and empowerment and replacement, and we must go through trials and problems in this life.

im just Glad that this is not the rule, but the exception.
this is a valley God brings us through, but the plains and plateaus are bigger than the valleys and more important to God.
though we must go through the valleys, we are are called to GO THROUGH THEM... not stay in them.
and he always turns our morning into dancing, and weeping only endures for a night, if we allow him to truely work in us.

God does have places of sadness and despair for us, but they are only defined stops on the road of life, and the trip overall is a joyful blessed one. Jesus did have times of open rebukes and tests etc... but if you asked the disciples the things they remembered best about Jesus... it would not be the hard times, but the good times.

im not saying you are doing this, but people who maximise the valleys and despairs of the gospel may seem humble and broken, but it is a perversion of the truth and an ignorance or a rebellion of what God is really about. God didnt come to bring death... he came to bring life.
and death may be involved, but death is the less important person in the picture.
we often read of things coming to pass. and we must realise that the hard despairing times, they only COME TO PASS.... it will pass, if we truely seek God and not sit here till we die.

and there are other people who refuse to come out of their valleys becuase they refuse to learn, and thats fine, but when they command everyone to come join them in their despair, its wrong, and their just jealous that other people are blessed for their servanthood to God.

i remember the words of t.d. jakes,
he said that people shouldnt command him to go back through valleys hes already been through and conquered, just becuase they havent yet, and they dont like that hes living in ways they cannot.

a race or a trip is never defined by its mere pit stops.
we need the pit stops of life, and we need the pits of life... but they are not the entirety of life.
when i get in the presence of God... i dont often find a depressing pit, but a fullness of Joy! GLORY! PRAISE GOD!
he came that we might live and live abundantly! we are a blessed people! blessed coming in and blessed going out! blessed in the city and blessed in the field, blessed when i come and when i go! im the head and not the tail, above ONLY and not beneath!
he was made poor, THAT I MAY BE MADE RICH! HE HAS PREPARED A TABLE BEFORE ME IN THE PRESENCE OF MY ENEMIES! HES ANNOINTED MY HEAD WITH OIL! MY CUP RUNS OVER!

AND SURELY GOODNESS AND MERCY SHALL FOLLOW ME ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE! THANK YOU JESUS FOR TURNING MY MOURNING INTO DANCING!

man im so glad, theres an angel named goodness, and an angel named mercy, and they continuelly follow me around and cause good things to happen to me and cause mercy to happen to me!
GOOD THINGS ARE SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN TO ME!