Battles in the mind

[Eleana]

Almost everyday I have to do alot of battling with my mind. condemned and corrupted thoughts seems to cross my mind every second. Thoughts such as "hate ppl like her why cant she vanish?" "what for praying for unseen God?" "life is sux why cant i just die?"...always cross my mind. I had prayed to God abt it but...

oh no...what should I do? I really want to be one hearted for God.

 

[Dominus Fidelis]

Almost everyday I have to do alot of battling with my mind. condemned and corrupted thoughts seems to cross my mind every second. Thoughts such as "hate ppl like her why cant she vanish?" "what for praying for unseen God?" "life is sux why cant i just die?"...always cross my mind. I had prayed to God abt it but...

oh no...what should I do? I really want to be one hearted for God.

Do you have Obsessive-Compulsive disorder or similiar illness, Eleana?

 

[Eleana]

what is that? how to check whether i do have it? i am not sure....but my thoughts sometimes can be very very negative and hating ppl around me alot. always quiet and not readily open up to ppl around me. but i know i am not shy. i am talkative when among close friends and family.

 

[Dominus Fidelis]

what is that? how to check whether i do have it? i am not sure....but my thoughts sometimes can be very very negative and hating ppl around me alot. always quiet and not readily open up to ppl around me. but i know i am not shy. i am talkative when among close friends and family.

Are the thoughts intrusive...meaning you dont know where they come from and they just "pop into your head"? Do they "stick" in your mind against your will?

Here are some definitions...

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/publicat/ocd.cfm#ocd1
http://www.ocfoundation.org/ocf1010a.htm
http://www.ocdonline.com/defineocd.htm

 

[eBeth]

Almost everyday I have to do alot of battling with my mind. condemned and corrupted thoughts seems to cross my mind every second. Thoughts such as "hate ppl like her why cant she vanish?" "what for praying for unseen God?" "life is sux why cant i just die?"...always cross my mind. I had prayed to God abt it but...

oh no...what should I do? I really want to be one hearted for God.

Eleana,

I have those kinds of thoughts also, some of mine are even worse than yours. There is a form of OCD in which the thoughts are mainly religious in nature. This is called "scrupulosity". I found a references that might help you:

http://www.ncpamd.com/scrup.htm

There is also a group on Yahoo that deals with this condition, it is called the_scrupe_group. Reading the posts there might help you.

If possible, you might want to seek out a doctor's or counceler's help. I'm currently doing that.

I hope you can find peace from these thoughts. I know how terrifying they can be.

Elizabeth

 

[Dominus Fidelis]

Any luck Eleana?

 

[Eleana]

hehehe dont think i am suffering that disease. Most probably is because of my negativity.

 

[Dominus Fidelis]

Well....GOOD!

 

[Bastoune]

hehehe dont think i am suffering that disease. Most probably is because of my negativity.

Well, you know what, you're doing the right thing by catching it, recognizing the negativity, and offering it up to the Lord... This will help you to work on overcoming the negativity. In the evening, read Psalm 51 and do an examination of conscience: why do I feel these negative things, have these negative thoughts? Work with the Holy Spirit (who will reveal the answers to you) to get to the root of things, and the holy fire of God will refine you.

God bless,
TIM