For some time I have doubts whether I'm saved or not. I still don't know for certain if baptism is neccessary for salvation.
I was in my late teens when I got baptised. But I didn't understood the gospel. I believe in Jesus and God and everything in the bible and I was raised as a christian and went to sunday school and church every week. But I struggled with sin a lot during my teenage years. Then my mom said I had to be baptised to be saved. Because of my social anxiety I was scared to be baptised in front of all the people in church, so when there was an opportunity to be baptised in the sea I thought that would be less scary. I remember the day before I got baptised that I knew I would start a new life after baptism, so I sinned one more time to say goodbye to it. After that I've read the sinners prayer from some selfhelp christian book and then I got baptised.
Now I feel not good about it. Like I wasn't serious about it that time. I was still sinning before I got baptised and I also didn't understood the gospel. Was my baptism valid back then? Years later I finally understood the gospel and converted again. I noticed that after that ''my eyes went open'' and I saw a lot of sin in my life I didn't even know was sin. I feel like I have to be baptise again, because I feel I wasn't serieus in my teens.
I don't know what to do and I also have anxiety and OCD which make me hesitate about everything.
I was in my late teens when I got baptised. But I didn't understood the gospel. I believe in Jesus and God and everything in the bible and I was raised as a christian and went to sunday school and church every week. But I struggled with sin a lot during my teenage years. Then my mom said I had to be baptised to be saved. Because of my social anxiety I was scared to be baptised in front of all the people in church, so when there was an opportunity to be baptised in the sea I thought that would be less scary. I remember the day before I got baptised that I knew I would start a new life after baptism, so I sinned one more time to say goodbye to it. After that I've read the sinners prayer from some selfhelp christian book and then I got baptised.
Now I feel not good about it. Like I wasn't serious about it that time. I was still sinning before I got baptised and I also didn't understood the gospel. Was my baptism valid back then? Years later I finally understood the gospel and converted again. I noticed that after that ''my eyes went open'' and I saw a lot of sin in my life I didn't even know was sin. I feel like I have to be baptise again, because I feel I wasn't serieus in my teens.
I don't know what to do and I also have anxiety and OCD which make me hesitate about everything.