Tonight I am at work as a paramedic on a 911 ambulance. My heart is especially heavy. I am struggling. In January we lost our only child who was born 17 weeks early. 
In the following months I have had 2 surgeries and my husband has been diagnosed with Crohn's. He was very ill and although I never told him, I was terrified I was going to lose him too. It is now August and we are still not pregnant. 
I am heartbroken. I want nothing more than to have a baby. I have struggled, to say the least, with my faith since losing my son. When I start to feel up again I am "knocked" down. I pray constantly for strength and health for my husband and of course, for a baby. Not just for me, but our families and my loving husband who was cheated out of his son. I know my broken heart will never totally heal, but having a baby to love and raise will change my life forever. I am begging for any prayers that can be spared. I know it is in God's plan for us to have children, here on this Earth...but it is so hard to see right now. Thank you. 
In the following months I have had 2 surgeries and my husband has been diagnosed with Crohn's. He was very ill and although I never told him, I was terrified I was going to lose him too. It is now August and we are still not pregnant. I am heartbroken. I want nothing more than to have a baby. I have struggled, to say the least, with my faith since losing my son. When I start to feel up again I am "knocked" down. I pray constantly for strength and health for my husband and of course, for a baby. Not just for me, but our families and my loving husband who was cheated out of his son. I know my broken heart will never totally heal, but having a baby to love and raise will change my life forever. I am begging for any prayers that can be spared. I know it is in God's plan for us to have children, here on this Earth...but it is so hard to see right now. Thank you. 
