Bad Feeling after being Saved?

[RAHenson]

Hi all. I hope this is the right place for this question. My husband and I are going to meet with our preacher in a few days to discuss this issue but I'm afraid I'm in need of answers now.
I was recently saved on Sunday after attending church for two months and giving it a lot of thought and prayer. Unfortunately I was not raised as a Christian and have believed many different things throughout my thirty years of being on this earth. I feel very emotional when I attend church and usually end up crying before the service is over. I'll admit I've done some very bad things but I'm a different person now, and I know Jesus understands how truly sorry I am for what I've done. In fact sorry doesn't even come close to describing it. Since I was saved I've been praying and reading the Bible every day, and trying to be more like Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.
Unfortunately, something has been plaguing off and on since I was saved. It started the moment I returned home from church on Sunday. It's difficult to describe, but it can be summed up as a very bad feeling in my chest. Like the moment when you hear awful news and your heart sinks, but this feeling lasts for hours at a time. It's nearly unbearable. I have many mental health issues including PTSD and I've had my fair share of awful feelings, but this is something I've never felt before. I'm sorry to say that it's leading me to question whether I've done the right thing! Could Jesus have rejected me? Could I have done something so bad that it cannot be forgiven, no matter how much I repent?
I have a couple of my own theories as to what this feeling may be. My first guess is that God is trying to bring repressed memories to the surface so I can heal. I have long suspected that I have them, and I've heard that as such memories surface they produce an uncanny feeling of dread and anxiety. Later, I talked to my aunt who has been a Christian all her life, and she told me that the devil doesn't concern himself with you until you become a Christian. Am I being attacked by the devil?
Yesterday as I was in the midst of one of these episodes, I fell to the floor and wept and begged Jesus to help me. At that very instant the feeling left me and remained gone for several hours. This was encouraging to me and seemed to suggest that yes, Jesus is there for me, He cares and perhaps I haven't been rejected by Him after all. Still, I consider myself in the midst of a spiritual crisis. And so soon after being saved! Everyone has told me that when you become saved, you feel good. That is not what's happened to me at all. In fact it's pretty much the opposite of what I was expecting.
So does anyone have any theories? Suggestions? Encouragement? Has this ever happened to anyone else? Please go easy on me.

 

[Swan7]

Hi all. I hope this is the right place for this question. My husband and I are going to meet with our preacher in a few days to discuss this issue but I'm afraid I'm in need of answers now.

A pastor can definitely help if he is filled with His spirit. You might find his insight best, pray before going to see him (at least that's what I would do) that Satan won't attack you or the pastor when you're in need of answers.

I was recently saved on Sunday after attending church for two months and giving it a lot of thought and prayer. Unfortunately I was not raised as a Christian and have believed many different things throughout my thirty years of being on this earth. I feel very emotional when I attend church and usually end up crying before the service is over. I'll admit I've done some very bad things but I'm a different person now, and I know Jesus understands how truly sorry I am for what I've done. In fact sorry doesn't even come close to describing it. Since I was saved I've been praying and reading the Bible every day, and trying to be more like Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.

My dad wasn't saved until in his late 30's into his 40's
Ahh, this tells me that you are in repentance and grieving over the wrong in your past life. Don't worry, God has forgiven you from the moment you asked for it. 1 John 1:9 He knows your heart. Think of it this way: Satan can't stand God and does whatever he can to cause discord in your life, even using your past against you. Luke 10:20

Unfortunately, something has been plaguing off and on since I was saved. It started the moment I returned home from church on Sunday. It's difficult to describe, but it can be summed up as a very bad feeling in my chest. Like the moment when you hear awful news and your heart sinks, but this feeling lasts for hours at a time. It's nearly unbearable. I have many mental health issues including PTSD and I've had my fair share of awful feelings, but this is something I've never felt before. I'm sorry to say that it's leading me to question whether I've done the right thing! Could Jesus have rejected me? Could I have done something so bad that it cannot be forgiven, no matter how much I repent?

Hmm.. a bad feeling in your chest might be to this effect? Forgive me if I am wrong: Hebrews 4:12 This isn't a bad thing, at least I don't take it as negative. This just means that you are repenting from your sins, however, Satan can also use this to his advantage, but remember, your name is now in the Book of Life in heaven. There's no need for you to despair.

I also think accepting your past for what it was and moving on with your new life in Christ is important. You can't change what you've done, only what you will do henceforth.

And finally, welcome to CF sister in Christ!

 

[mikedsjr]

Hi all. I hope this is the right place for this question. My husband and I are going to meet with our preacher in a few days to discuss this issue but I'm afraid I'm in need of answers now.
I was recently saved on Sunday after attending church for two months and giving it a lot of thought and prayer. Unfortunately I was not raised as a Christian and have believed many different things throughout my thirty years of being on this earth. I feel very emotional when I attend church and usually end up crying before the service is over. I'll admit I've done some very bad things but I'm a different person now, and I know Jesus understands how truly sorry I am for what I've done. In fact sorry doesn't even come close to describing it. Since I was saved I've been praying and reading the Bible every day, and trying to be more like Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.
Unfortunately, something has been plaguing off and on since I was saved. It started the moment I returned home from church on Sunday. It's difficult to describe, but it can be summed up as a very bad feeling in my chest. Like the moment when you hear awful news and your heart sinks, but this feeling lasts for hours at a time. It's nearly unbearable. I have many mental health issues including PTSD and I've had my fair share of awful feelings, but this is something I've never felt before. I'm sorry to say that it's leading me to question whether I've done the right thing! Could Jesus have rejected me? Could I have done something so bad that it cannot be forgiven, no matter how much I repent?
I have a couple of my own theories as to what this feeling may be. My first guess is that God is trying to bring repressed memories to the surface so I can heal. I have long suspected that I have them, and I've heard that as such memories surface they produce an uncanny feeling of dread and anxiety. Later, I talked to my aunt who has been a Christian all her life, and she told me that the devil doesn't concern himself with you until you become a Christian. Am I being attacked by the devil?
Yesterday as I was in the midst of one of these episodes, I fell to the floor and wept and begged Jesus to help me. At that very instant the feeling left me and remained gone for several hours. This was encouraging to me and seemed to suggest that yes, Jesus is there for me, He cares and perhaps I haven't been rejected by Him after all. Still, I consider myself in the midst of a spiritual crisis. And so soon after being saved! Everyone has told me that when you become saved, you feel good. That is not what's happened to me at all. In fact it's pretty much the opposite of what I was expecting.
So does anyone have any theories? Suggestions? Encouragement? Has this ever happened to anyone else? Please go easy on me.

It could very well be spiritual warfare occurring. I assure you the mere fact that you concerned over this is a good indication God has not rejected your faith in him. It's a sign of the opposite. That you could be dealing with spiritual warfare and your dependence in God will give you perseverance through this.

Being face to face with a pastor will help.

 

[Thunder Peel]

One thing you have to keep in mind is that coming to Christ will make you aware of things you didn't sense before. You'll become much more sensitive to sin and the voice of the Holy Spirit will convict, comfort and instruct in a way that a non-Christian simply cannot comprehend. There are times when I feel as if my heart will explode out of my chest, as if there's a deep urge within me. When I slow down and listen to what God is telling me it passes. It can be a strange sensation that takes some getting used to for new believers.

Jesus will not reject anyone who honestly turns to Him, so keep praying and digging deep into His Word. The more you do that, the greater the peace will be.

 

[98cwitr]

I would agree with Mike. The devil doesn't want to lose you, and that feel may be the very thing that the devil is doing to replant seeds of doubt and pain. Don't give in and fight the good fight. Don't give up! Glad you're going to talk to a pastor. I would suggest reading 1 John...it really helped me in times such as this.

 

[RAHenson]

Thanks everyone for your kind responses. I spoke to my pastor on the phone for over an hour, and he really settled my heart and my mind. After our conversation the bad feeling is mostly gone, at least for now. He suffers from depression like me and had similar feelings after he was saved, which was good to hear. I was beginning to fear that I was the only one. He reminded me that it was the people who were sick, destitute, and feeling pain in their hearts that Jesus most gravitated towards while He was on earth. The pastor will be coming over tonight to speak with me and my husband face to face.
If this is the devil at work, he has been doing a good job of planting seeds of doubt and despair. But I know I must remain steadfast in my faith, even if it is painful. I'll be doing a lot of praying today before I see the pastor.
Again, thank you guys for your responses. You have all been very kind and nonjudgmental. I am thankful to God for your gentle words of encouragement.

 

[Grandpa4]

The best feeling I ever had in my life was the moment I was saved as I was flooded with a peace I never knew existed.

 

[GuyNad]

Hi all. I hope this is the right place for this question. My husband and I are going to meet with our preacher in a few days to discuss this issue but I'm afraid I'm in need of answers now.

You're not alone to feel that way. My first years as a Christian were like that too. I thought I was damned. As if I could almost hear the devil whispering to my ears that he'll be there for me at the end. But don't believe him.

Jesus knows we're not perfect and that we still have a sinful nature. It's for those reasons he came. We couldn't save ourselves. And we still can't today.

I like these verses here...

Because God’s children are human beings—made of flesh and blood—the Son also became flesh and blood. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the devil, who had the power of death.Only in this way could he set free all who have lived their lives as slaves to the fear of dying. (Hebrews 2:14-15)

Believe and put your trust in His love!

Jesus said he would never reject those who come to him! (John 6:37)​

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[Bluelion]

Hi all. I hope this is the right place for this question. My husband and I are going to meet with our preacher in a few days to discuss this issue but I'm afraid I'm in need of answers now.
I was recently saved on Sunday after attending church for two months and giving it a lot of thought and prayer. Unfortunately I was not raised as a Christian and have believed many different things throughout my thirty years of being on this earth. I feel very emotional when I attend church and usually end up crying before the service is over. I'll admit I've done some very bad things but I'm a different person now, and I know Jesus understands how truly sorry I am for what I've done. In fact sorry doesn't even come close to describing it. Since I was saved I've been praying and reading the Bible every day, and trying to be more like Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.
Unfortunately, something has been plaguing off and on since I was saved. It started the moment I returned home from church on Sunday. It's difficult to describe, but it can be summed up as a very bad feeling in my chest. Like the moment when you hear awful news and your heart sinks, but this feeling lasts for hours at a time. It's nearly unbearable. I have many mental health issues including PTSD and I've had my fair share of awful feelings, but this is something I've never felt before. I'm sorry to say that it's leading me to question whether I've done the right thing! Could Jesus have rejected me? Could I have done something so bad that it cannot be forgiven, no matter how much I repent?
I have a couple of my own theories as to what this feeling may be. My first guess is that God is trying to bring repressed memories to the surface so I can heal. I have long suspected that I have them, and I've heard that as such memories surface they produce an uncanny feeling of dread and anxiety. Later, I talked to my aunt who has been a Christian all her life, and she told me that the devil doesn't concern himself with you until you become a Christian. Am I being attacked by the devil?
Yesterday as I was in the midst of one of these episodes, I fell to the floor and wept and begged Jesus to help me. At that very instant the feeling left me and remained gone for several hours. This was encouraging to me and seemed to suggest that yes, Jesus is there for me, He cares and perhaps I haven't been rejected by Him after all. Still, I consider myself in the midst of a spiritual crisis. And so soon after being saved! Everyone has told me that when you become saved, you feel good. That is not what's happened to me at all. In fact it's pretty much the opposite of what I was expecting.
So does anyone have any theories? Suggestions? Encouragement? Has this ever happened to anyone else? Please go easy on me.

Not sure if you are still following this thread or not, but have you surrendered top God? Have you said God i give my life my soul to you, My life is in your hands and mean it. Completely surrender your will. If yes next step is to be baptized, that is awesome and a lot of fun usually the Holy Spirit hits you then it is pure joy. You got to understand what your doing though, Going under the water is dying be buried with Jesus in the grave, Coming out of the water is being resurrected with Jesus to Life. These steps in salvation will help you.

Could you be under attack, sure, keep moving forward. I have often been attack by demons and fight them off daily, rather Jesus fights them off. Know you will suffer but you will be reward after this life with eternal life. It is a small trade when you think of it. It is not like yay my life is prefect i have everything i want the temp is always 70 and it never rains. You will have hard times but Jesus will not leave you if you have accepted Him. You can not lose salvation either once you have it. I encourage you to take the steps in salvation i said above.

 

[alex2165]

To RAHenson


Absolutely everything in the Bible is conditional. Every statement of GOD Father and His Son Jesus Christ is conditional. The Sacrifice of Jesus Christ is also conditional and the forgiveness of sins and the salvation that it brings is also conditional.


Matthew 7.21

21."Not everyone who says to Me,‘Lord, Lord,’will enter the Kingdom of Heaven,but only the one who does the will of My Father in Heaven."


Matthew 19.16-22


If you wish to be perfect, do something what which is above Commandments.


16.Then someone came to Him and said, “Teacher, what good deed must I do to have eternal life?”

17.And He said to him,“Why do you ask Me about what is good? There is only One Who is good.*If you wish to enter into life, keep the Commandments.”

*(Verse 17. Commandments of the Lord give Life:(Leviticus 18.5) (Deuteronomy 8.3) (Nehemiah 9.29) (Ezekiel 20.11.13)(Matthew 4.4, 19.17) (Luke 4.4) (John 8.51, 12.49-50)


But traditions of the church teach and encourage their parishioners to ignore the conditions that the Lord set for us, but only to take the general terms of salvation such as this, “Believe in Christ and you are save,” which without conditions is meaningless and useless.


To convince yourself that you are saved will get you nowhere! The pastor who told you that you are saved is the paid pastor, who makes money of delivering “Good News” and feels good sensation to the people in order to keep them in the church and to profit from them, but in its core such words are completely false and contradict everything that the Bible teach about Jesus’ Sacrifice, forgiveness of sins, and salvation.


Mark 7.6-11

6.And He said to them,"Rightly did Isaiah prophesy of you hypocrites, as it is written,'This people honor Me with their lips, but their hearts is far away from Me,

7.but in vain do they worship Me,teaching as doctrines the precepts of men.'

(Isaiah 29.13) (Jeremiah 12.2.6),(Ezekiel 33.31),(Matthew 15.7-9),(Mark 7.6-7-13) (Colossians 2.20-22) (Titus 1.14-16),


8.Neglecting theCommandment of GODyou hold to the tradition of men."

9.He was also saying to them,"You nicely set aside theCommandment of GODin order to keep your tradition.


And those who declared that they have been already saved on such and such date do not tell you the truth. No one can possibly know if they saved or not, this decision solely belongs to GOD, Who in the last days will judge all humankind and deliver His verdict to the “sheep” and to the “goats.” So call “goats” also thought that they are saved, but because they have been corrupted and used the name of Jesus for personal gain and distorted the principals, ideals, and the meaning of the Holy Scripture, such people have been rejected by One on Whom they relied for their salvation and claimed that they are already saved. Such people think that the Lord GOD is the same hypocrite as they are, but surely they were proven wrong.

Why you go to the church Ra Henson? And why you asking a pastor for help? None of those who live on this Earth can help you in your depression. Do you have Bible? Can you read and write? If you are completely illiterate then of course you need to go and listen to others in order to help you, but you if can read and at least have average intelligence, you can read your Bible and find in it absolutely everything you need.


Only the Bible can tell you the truth and guide you on the right path and with the prayer to the Lord asking for understanding of his Word, I completely reassure you that you will find all the answer for your condition and for your life questions, without any doubt.


People are constantly lying, and many “Christians” do the same. Many Christians also want to have a “short cut” to Heaven, deceiving themselves and being delusional in their own doctrines, dogmas, and false beliefs by ignoring the conditions, obligations, and requirements of the Gospel and its salvation, and rely only on the general terminology describing belief, forgiveness, and salvation. And they are not only deceiving themselves but also deceiving and others leading the naïve and immature people in Christ on the wrong path.


Take your Bible and at least just read all the statement of Jesus Christ highlighted in red, this alone would open your eyes and you will see how wrong and deceitful the church is and those who tell you what they are already saved. Did anyone of those who claimed to be already saved look at the Book which are open in Heaven and saw the name in it? Ask them if they saw their name in the Book of Life of Christ? Ask them did they ever been in Heaven at least?


I already covered this subject in my previous post and presented many places of the Bible which completely contradict the false traditional doctrine of the church that just believing in Christ is enough to be saved. Today, and as from the very beginning of the Christian church this false doctrine has been propagated to those who so lazy to read and study their own Bible but prefer to go to the church and listen to preacher and to other people something that is outright is not even Biblical.


John 12.50

50.And I know thatHis Commandment is Eternal Life.What I speak, therefore I speakjust as the Father has told Me.”

*(Verse 50. Commandments of the Lord give Life:(Leviticus 18.5) (Deuteronomy 8.3) (Nehemiah 9.29) (Ezekiel 20.11.13)(Matthew 4.4, 19.17) (Luke 4.4) (John 12.49-50)


Ignoring conditions, requirements, and obligations of salvation would not save you Ra Henson, but fulfilling and religiously follow all the Commandments of GOD will definitely give you a certain satisfaction and extraordinary peace of mind. It does not mean that you will completely healed from your depression, you most likely will suffer from it all your life, like many of us who have different kinds of illnesses, sicknesses, physiological and spiritual problems, by which, in many cases GOD testing us in order to see how we deal with it, and do we rely on Him in all our sufferings.


Actually it is our fate to suffer by all kinds of different suffering, just like Jesus Christ suffered while He had been here on Earth and during His crucifixion. And our suffering creates in us endurance against evil, and humbled us before our Lord, make our heart pure and acceptable to GOD.


To Romans 5.3-4

3.And not only that,but we also boast in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance,

4.and endurance produces character, and character produces hope,


To Romans 12.12

12.Rejoice in hope,be patient in suffering,preserve in prayer.


Revelation 14.12

12.Here is a call for the endurance of the saintsthose who keep the Commandments of GODand hold fast to the faith of Jesus.

Read also Book of Job, and in that Book you will find many answer and encouragement for your own suffering. Do not listen too much what other people saying or advising you, read the Holy Book and establish personal relationship with your Lord and not with the hypocrites of the church. Do not rely on the people, always rely on your GOD. And do not worry about your salvation, if you worthy of it, and if you worthy of the Blood of Christ which will cleanse you from your sins and ultimately give salvation to you, only then you will be saved.


If you give your heart to the Lord and not to the false doctrines and lies, then you will be saved. And if you follow all the Commandments of GOD and obey them, surely the Lord GOD will not leave you outside of His Kingdom.


Psalms 50.15.23

15.Call on Me in the day of trouble, I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me."

23.Those who bring thanksgiving as their sacrifice honor Me, to those who go the right way I will show the salvation of GOD.


And do not believe those who saying to you that this is Devil who turns us away from the Lord and makes us sin. We have enough evil on our own without Devil to commit iniquities and transgressions against our GOD. Watch constantly yourself, remember the Statutes and Ordinances of the Lord and follow them, and your salvation will not be far away.


Those who claim to be already saved are arrogant and do not know the Word of GOD, or purposely ignoring it. Do not bother yourself with such thoughts of your salvation, give it to the Lord to decide, but on your part follow His Principals, Commandments, and Ideals, and you will be OK.


Joshua 1.7

GOD commissions Joshua to lead Israel and reassured him of His support.

7."Only be strong and very courageous, being careful to act in accordance with all the Law that My servant Moses commanded you,*do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left,so that you may be successful wherever you go."


*(Do not go aside from the Law to the right or to the left, and do not add or deduct anything from it:(Deuteronomy 4.2, 5.32, 12.32, 17.18-20, 28.14) (Joshua 1.7)(Proverbs 4.27, 30.6)(Revelation 22.18-19)


Psalms 103.17-18(of David)

17.But thesteadfast loveof the Lordisfrom everlasting to everlastingon those who fear Him,and His righteousness to children's children,

18.to those who keep His Covenant and remember to do His Commandments.


Ezekiel 20.11

11."I gave them My Statutes and showed them My Ordinances*by whose observance everyone shall live.

*(Verse 11. Commandments of the Lord give Life:(Leviticus 18.5) (Deuteronomy 8.3) (Nehemiah 9.29) (Ezekiel 20.11.13)(Matthew 4.4, 19.17) (Luke 4.4) (John 8.51, 12.49-50)


Matthew 23.8-10

8."But you do not be called rabbi,One is your Teacher,and you are all brothers.

9.And do not call anyone on Earth your father,One is your Father, He Who is in Heaven.

10.And do not be called leaders,One is your Leader, that is Christ.