bad choices

[musiclady]

I have had a horrible week. Tried to turn things around, and kept getting hit in the face with reminders of si...and fell flat on my face. it's so disappointing, to myself and to the people around me. somehow i have to find the nerve to clue my husband in. I'd rather him see the pain, then perhaps he would know. oh, then i think i should just keep it to myself, i'm not really hurting anyone, right? the circle just goes round and round in my mind. i am so tired. and i dont want to be like this anymore!!

Dona

 

[Renwolf]

I'm sorry you've been having a rough time.

Keeping it to yourself hurts you, and I can't imagine your husband would want that. Even though it'll be hard for him to hear, he probably would rather know so that he can try to help. That might be a way for you to start breaking the cycle that keeps going around and aroung in your mind.

When my parents found out about my self injury, I was in my mid 20s and had been struggling with depression for a long time. They told me that they were actually relieved, because they knew that something had been going on with me, they just didn't know what exactly, and not knowing was making them even more worried. Once they knew what the problem was, they could start researching and finding ways to try to help and support me.

Best of luck to you with everything. Hang in there and take care of yourself. ((hugs if you want them))