Augh.

[berry2000]

Too much stress. The depression is coming back. I'm drowing in negativity. The "it always" and "I never get to" and "it never will get better" and "it's all horrible how do i live like this"

I overworked myself last week. I don't know why i did that or why i couldn't stop myself from doing to much. There was just so much work to be done.

And my husband got passed over for a job that we really hoped he was going to get. Now we will find out on tuesday if he can continue to get his PHD or if he will fail out of the program. If that happens he will also loose his job for the new school semster coming up.

 

[Auston]

Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Psalm 37 v 4

No matter how raging the storm, I believe this.

 

[Alive again]

Too much stress. The depression is coming back. I'm drowing in negativity. The "it always" and "I never get to" and "it never will get better" and "it's all horrible how do i live like this" .

Oh how that echoes with periods of my life!!! Hugs and Prayers! I am actually beginning to feel that way today about my marriage, as my hubby is getting back to irritable depression stage! (He has just good old depression.) Two of us with moods can get interesting ! SIGH!

I overworked myself last week. I don't know why i did that or why i couldn't stop myself from doing to much. There was just so much work to be done. .

WOW! This is so me!!! I do not know sometimes why I can't just STOP and take care of myself! Here is more hugs and prying for rest and relaxation and recuperation for you!

And my husband got passed over for a job that we really hoped he was going to get. Now we will find out on tuesday if he can continue to get his PHD or if he will fail out of the program. If that happens he will also loose his job for the new school semester coming up.

Praying for God to intervene and provide for all your needs!!!!

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

Dear Berry2000,

You're husband is in luck, the school season is starting and he can quite racking his brain to get a Ph.D. he could get hired as a substitute teacher provided he has no criminal record and does not do illeagal drugs. He can take prescribed drugs but not illeagal drugs, and some schools pay $100 a day for people with a Master's degree.

Even if he has a little criminal record sometimes they don't hold it against you to have a small offense, like shop lifting a candy bar or something minor like that.

I highlyy recommnend he stay away from part time college teaching you have to be a good teacher to keep your job for that, so really he should substitute teach until he knows how to teach people without them all complaining about him.

That is my two cents anyhow

 

[searchingforpeace]

Too much stress. The depression is coming back. I'm drowing in negativity. The "it always" and "I never get to" and "it never will get better" and "it's all horrible how do i live like this"

I overworked myself last week. I don't know why i did that or why i couldn't stop myself from doing to much. There was just so much work to be done.

And my husband got passed over for a job that we really hoped he was going to get. Now we will find out on tuesday if he can continue to get his PHD or if he will fail out of the program. If that happens he will also loose his job for the new school semster coming up.

So sorry to hear the depression is coming back. Have you contacted your doc? Keeping you and your hubby in my prayers.

Dianna

 

[berry2000]

Thanks everyone. As always it helps to know you are out there and listening. That is a good idea Doubting Thomas. Perhaps we can do that. Substitute teaching.

 

[angelkiss]

Thanks everyone. As always it helps to know you are out there and listening. That is a good idea Doubting Thomas. Perhaps we can do that. Substitute teaching.

Praying for you and your hubby.
s and es!!

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

Dear Berry,

I have substitute taught probably for twenty plus times over the years. Here is everything I know about it.

The students have to shut up, they can't sit around and talk, some school districts the students let the teacher take attendance without talking, some districts are not like that. To get them to shut up here is what I do I realize addressing them will not work, they are all wound up talking to each other, so talking to them is like yelling at a wall, so here is what I do. I write on the board "Not listening to the teacher results in poor grades and administrative referals." Usually by the time youwrite it someone says "Shut up he is writing on the board." I then tell them they have to write that sentence down twenty times. They have to be totally silent while writing it down. While they are writng, you take attendance, and then usually you show them a video, then you might have to give them a work sheet, or you might get to read to them about greek mythology or viking mythology. Which is fun.

Also if they keep acting up and cannot sit and listen, you can start giving the students more creative writing assignments, they got to shut up, or the principle will not let you come back to the school. So here is what you do, you write on the board a bunch of qurestions for them to answer in essay format and you can just fire a bunch of questions at them to write in their opinion what the answer is.

I am going to ask them about respect later in the year.

You can ask them by writing the questions on the board and they have to give you written responses to you.

Here are the questions:

Do you respect your teacher?

Do you respect your friends or your parents?

For what reasons do you have to respect your teacher, friends and parents? Are the same reasons or are they different? Are they simila reasons?

How would you define respect?

Including your definition of respect what does it mean to respect the weather on a dark stormy night, and to respect your friends? What does it mean to treat someone with respect?

What does it mean to earn respect? Does respect ever come automactically? What does it mean to you to demand respect? When would you have to demand respect, and how would you go about doing it, keeping within the bound of the law?

Knowing all you know about everything, why would you treat a police officer with respect, and why would you treat me with respect?

You can ask elementary school students to answer this, middle school students to answer this, and high school students to answer it.

The underlying answer to these questions in one word is fear. These students need to fear that this teacher is going to write them up for misbehaving and stopping the teacher from executing the lesson plan.

We treat our friends with respect, and return their phone calls, because, we fear the loss of their friendship, or losing favor with them, that is a big reason as to why we are nice to our loved ones, so they don't have a reason to not like us. We do it out of respect for them as a human being which is really the fear of the loss of their friendship. Another reason why we may be nice to someone is that we just like the person, but really we always treat them with respect to keep their friendship, they wouldn't be our friend any more if we didn't treat them with respect.

And a teacher cannot teach, if he or she losses the respect of the classroom, so now that these dunderheads now clearly know what respect is, maybe they will listen next time.

Or you can ask the students to write down what they did for the summer:

Did they work, did they go anywhere?

What do your parent's do for a living? How long have you lived in Florida?

Then tell the students they got to hand in a two page description of what they did for the summer, so they got to brain storm a little bit, and tell the students the teacher will read it, and so will your teacher read it, so get writing and keep your audience in mind.

That will keep them quiet.

How about anyone else? Does anybody have substitute teaching experience and getting the students to respect the teacher and to learn?

 

[bipolarbear]

berry, I am on vacation, so I am comming to this thread late, and for that I am sorry! Know I will be on my knees in prayer over you & your situations! Remember negitive self talk is just that, negative! Try and replace it with an encouraging thougth or thing you did, weater it be a long time ago, or reciently! It is very hard to stop putting that much pressure on yourself, I know that first hand! My tdoc currently has given me homework over being too hard on myself. Look at your situation from a diffrent point of view.. Look at the true facts, then remind yourself that people who do not have bipolar would be having just as much of a difficult time, so there is no reason for you to "beat yourself up" over it all! Know you are cherished, and you can come here for support any time! May you see the Lord's blessings in your days

 

[FragileWinter]

I'm praying too, Berry. You've been given great advice so far. I hope your situation gets better soon,

Aya

 

[berry2000]

Thanks bipolar bear and fragile winter (ps. i love you avatar lol). I should know in a few hours.

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

Well I believe prayer is superstion but I hope my advice is helpful. If I was a praying man I would pray for you.

 

[berry2000]

He passed! Yeah!

But i am so exhausted i could sleep for 2-3 days straight. Partly because of the stress. But also because of the depression.

 

[Alive again]

He passed! Yeah!

But i am so exhausted i could sleep for 2-3 days straight. Partly because of the stress. But also because of the depression.

PTL!!!!! Rest well dear friend!

 

[bipolarbear]

Oh praise the Lord!!! I am thankful for His decision to look upon your situation wih favor!

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

Dear Berry did your husband just pass his disertation defense? Is that what you are talking about?

 

[berry2000]

No he passed his qualifications exam. Now he has permission to write the dissertation based on his outline which was also approved as a condition of the quals. Confusing i know. I guess there are three steps. Master's, Qualifications (ABD), and Disseration (PhD).

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

I actually got a Master's degree so I know something about this. I was in the Ph.D. program but I needed more time to recover from my mental illness and from working too hard for too long. I feel rested up now and might go back to school for a Ph. D. in Mathematics, to help me with my teaching career.

I could teach at high school and teach as an adjunct professor at a community college too. I feel with a ph. D I would get to teach calculus, Linear Algebra and differential equations. However time will tell, right now I would be happy with just teaching at a high school.

 

[berry2000]

Wow you must be really good at math.

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

For me it is easy to do math, but it isn't so easy to teach it. It is starting to get easier and this is my third year of doing it, I just got to remember to not stall and keep the information coming.

I tell stories about Gauss, and I basically define terms for the students. I show them how to do proofs by induction and help them to come up with a conjecture. You got to use your mind when you teach, you can't be nervous, or even over prepared, you got to have some spontanity in it, and b ready to digress for them.

It is my third year I think I am getting the hang of it.