At the end of my rope

[LoyalToGod]

Ever since Friday, my faith is severely tested to the point of me cursing God literally (as well as him abandoning me in my hour of need). I have been having nothing but problem after problem.

1. I got criticized by some member at a psychosocial clubhouse I go to for proposing an idea for a trip to a lucha libre show that is going to happen here in my city.

2. I got shushed just for expressing my anger.

3. I tried to self-harm literally.

4. No one cares about me, even God has abandoned me completely. I even went to different forums for help, only to be met with indifference and insults, even platitudes.

5. I tried to run away from home for good.

6. God hates me literally.

7. I saw the last person I wanted to see at the therapy place.

I've tried praying, but it seems like He hates me and wants me to go away from His presence forever. Please help, and pray for me. Thank you in advance.

 

[look4hope]

@LoyalToGod

Would it sound silly to say that I struggle with keeping strength and staying faithful to God?
It happens. We are imperfect. When things are really bad, we are tested. Our faith, our will, pretty much everything. I won't bore you with "it's a phase" or "things will brighten up" lines. But one thing though, know there's so many of us here that struggle with similar situations..so if you ever wanted to share or chat, PM me.

~Blessings~

 

[Winter]

I am praying for you LoyaltoGod.

God does not hate you because the word isn't even in His vocabulary. He is not capable of hate. He is love. He is all love. You are His creation and He loves you. Sometimes God steps back so that we can work understand ourselves better. When we reach a better understanding of ourselves and then approach Him with faith and hope, then He'll be able to lift the veil of our confusion. Thoughts have a way of tearing our souls apart. Take each new understanding you receive one step at a time. Depression and pain requires healing and healing is done in small steps.

 

[Jeshu]

When bad life gets to you then it is time to say good bye to bad life and turn your back on it and pursue good life instead. Each loving, caring, kind, gentle, long suffering, forgiving, graceful, understanding, compassionate, humble or thankful thought you can muster, do it and ask God to bless you and make you strong in Him and His loving truth.

It is a step by step process, where at times we stumble, or fall, or have major set backs, yet in the end we will gain our goal and make what is His our own.

So please don't fight bad life by try to be good in your own ability, for that doesn't work all that well, only do good when you want to do good, for then God put it in your heart, and do it not for yourself but for God and neighbour and you will be blessed and also find that His loving truth is best.

About cursing God, I'm ashamed to admit that I have been there and did that too, more than once even, however all the bad life pressing on me that made me do that perished, while Jesus saved my by the skin of my teeth from such bad life controlling and hurting me and Him so badly.

Put your trust in Jesus Loyal and be of good courage

Jesus rescues

When depression reigns
and all seems lost!
When regrets demand an ear
shame and guilt burn our hearts!

When loneliness attacks
and despair pounds!
When hopelessness compels
and the pit looms!

Then call upon Jesus
and let Him save you!
Then cling to His love
His grace will comfort you!

Then shelter underneath His wings
and find protection from bad life!
Then in His love there is safety
as we are made anew!

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

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[OutOfPlace_Christian]

Ever since Friday, my faith is severely tested to the point of me cursing God literally (as well as him abandoning me in my hour of need). I have been having nothing but problem after problem.

1. I got criticized by some member at a psychosocial clubhouse I go to for proposing an idea for a trip to a lucha libre show that is going to happen here in my city.

2. I got shushed just for expressing my anger.

3. I tried to self-harm literally.

4. No one cares about me, even God has abandoned me completely. I even went to different forums for help, only to be met with indifference and insults, even platitudes.

5. I tried to run away from home for good.

6. God hates me literally.

7. I saw the last person I wanted to see at the therapy place.

I've tried praying, but it seems like He hates me and wants me to go away from His presence forever. Please help, and pray for me. Thank you in advance.

These are all pretty heavy emotions . God doesn't hate you though. Remember that He is close to the brokenhearted and crushed in spirit (See Psalm 34:18). I have also had my faith in God tested a couple of times so I understand. Hope you are feeling better today though and don't stop praying about it.

 

[OutOfPlace_Christian]

Basically...we are all somewhat messed up and need God to do some fixing here and there I need a lot of fixing I must admit.

 

[W2L]

Basically...we are all somewhat messed up and need God to do some fixing here and there I need a lot of fixing I must admit.

Me too.

 

[Jeshu]

Who can boast when it comes to perfection or a sinless life? Only those blinded by sin do that. It is written that it takes Christ and the 144,000 resurrected an 1000 years to make us strong enough to face the devil one final time, and even then it is only through the work of Jesus that we are saved and the works of satan are finally completely destroyed and done away with and God the Father becomes all in all within us.

Isaiah 27:12
In that day the Lord will thresh from the flowing Euphrates to the Wadi of Egypt, and you, Israel, will be gathered up one by one.

 

[OutOfPlace_Christian]

Well said Jeshu. Well said

 

[W2L]

Who can boast when it comes to perfection or a sinless life? Only those blinded by sin do that.

Amen.

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

I feel the same way

 

[LoyalToGod]

I feel the same way

And thank you, everyone, for being compassionate and merciful. I can feel the Holy Spirit's presence within this thread, bringing me nearly to the point of joyful tears as I write this.

UPDATE: Everything was merely satan's attempt to destroy my life, but thank you, God, for being with me! Everything has been resolved.

 

[OutOfPlace_Christian]

Woohoo! Happy to hear that

 

[alsughasoughaiuyfygh]

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