For almost six years I feel as I have fought alone with trying to get to my friend in a clear enought manner that he finally understands that I must speak with him and that he clearly hears without cult intervention or should I say "butting in"?
Anyway............Finally my husband has decided to help me. In the past it was "my baby" to fix. But now he finally sees that he is needed to get this thing off the ground.
It took a king sized fight on Saturday, well not really a fight since I wasn't really involved (not that I can't fight, mind you, I know how, believe me). He made a giant relational error Saturday morning. He got discouraged because of the stock market, decided that it was because he was married to me, imagined I was somehow unfaithful to him, wrote and told my pastor this, and came and told me we were through. All in about two hours time. I was blissfully asleep while all of this drama was going on since all of the above is untrue and while I was doing my morning beauty (survival) routine he came and told all he came up with that night. It was 5:00am. I lost it and could not stop crying and yes screaming (not at him just in sorrow and shock). It took him over two hours to calm me down, ugh. Anyway..........I did want to die since my pastor must now think I am this loose woman out having an affair with who know who. I just lost all hope and all trust in my husband and was frankly on the verge of leaving this world. But...........
In the midst of all of that mess, somehow I got hope. I thought maybe all of this was somehow happening for some sort of purpose. What? I did not know. My husband after seeing me loose it figured he was wrong. Duh? He also tried writing a letter of apology to the pastor and explaining he was wacked. I am not sure that will work, but anyway... He then asked me our to breakfast. I reluctantly went with two swollen eyes, just because all that work out got me a bit tired out.
But at the table he proceeded to say that he was going to help me make things right with my friend and approach him for me. Well Halleluijah (sp)!! I had waited for six years for him to finally step up to the plate. He finally was ready!!!!!!!!I was devastated from the rest of that morning but saw that maybe my suffering was necessary to wake up my husband. I don't know.
So he is determined now to help me. I think he finally sees that I am on the verge of going crazy with the stress of this thing and he is needed to step in. He is also on the verge of receiving Christ. So if all of this comes to pass, my pain will be worth it.
So..............Please pray that he gets to my friend and that he and my friend will meet and then they will agree that my friend and I need to meet. There is nothing wrong even in the cult's eyes with my friend speaking with my husband. So..........please pray that my friend gets my husband's call, agrees to meet with him, and then agrees to meet alone with me. Thanks so much.
Thanking you and the Lord ahead of time--Rose
Anyway............Finally my husband has decided to help me. In the past it was "my baby" to fix. But now he finally sees that he is needed to get this thing off the ground.
It took a king sized fight on Saturday, well not really a fight since I wasn't really involved (not that I can't fight, mind you, I know how, believe me). He made a giant relational error Saturday morning. He got discouraged because of the stock market, decided that it was because he was married to me, imagined I was somehow unfaithful to him, wrote and told my pastor this, and came and told me we were through. All in about two hours time. I was blissfully asleep while all of this drama was going on since all of the above is untrue and while I was doing my morning beauty (survival) routine he came and told all he came up with that night. It was 5:00am. I lost it and could not stop crying and yes screaming (not at him just in sorrow and shock). It took him over two hours to calm me down, ugh. Anyway..........I did want to die since my pastor must now think I am this loose woman out having an affair with who know who. I just lost all hope and all trust in my husband and was frankly on the verge of leaving this world. But...........
In the midst of all of that mess, somehow I got hope. I thought maybe all of this was somehow happening for some sort of purpose. What? I did not know. My husband after seeing me loose it figured he was wrong. Duh? He also tried writing a letter of apology to the pastor and explaining he was wacked. I am not sure that will work, but anyway... He then asked me our to breakfast. I reluctantly went with two swollen eyes, just because all that work out got me a bit tired out.
But at the table he proceeded to say that he was going to help me make things right with my friend and approach him for me. Well Halleluijah (sp)!! I had waited for six years for him to finally step up to the plate. He finally was ready!!!!!!!!I was devastated from the rest of that morning but saw that maybe my suffering was necessary to wake up my husband. I don't know.
So he is determined now to help me. I think he finally sees that I am on the verge of going crazy with the stress of this thing and he is needed to step in. He is also on the verge of receiving Christ. So if all of this comes to pass, my pain will be worth it.
So..............Please pray that he gets to my friend and that he and my friend will meet and then they will agree that my friend and I need to meet. There is nothing wrong even in the cult's eyes with my friend speaking with my husband. So..........please pray that my friend gets my husband's call, agrees to meet with him, and then agrees to meet alone with me. Thanks so much.
Thanking you and the Lord ahead of time--Rose
May the Lord protect those in the path of harm; may the Lord guide the words and example of those who seek to do His will; may the Lord protect our brothers and sisters from misguided or dangerous influences; may the Lord show those who judge others the error of their ways, and forgive them; may the Lord heal those who have been wrongly accused, and bring peace, healing, and transformation. His will be done. INJC 
Seriously, have a happy birthday. --Rose
