asking for your prayers &support

[John Page]

Hello to all of my brothers and sisters in this froum.I have been away from christian froums for about four years. I left because I was weak and fell into Satans trap and listened to his lies.I have come back asking Jesus and the father back into my life an I realize how much I need all your friendship prayers and support.
I have been looking at alot of the guys who have been posting with the struggle of homosexulaity. Every time I read one of these post it brings a tear to my eyes as I feel the pain guilt and shame. It hurts so much you see I am an older gay man ( NOT ATCTIVE ) I belive in the bible that it says a man should not lay with a man. I pray everyday that I do not fall into this sin. I do not know if I was born this way or if it is just some cross wires in my brain. I do know I have been like this all of my life and always hated it. I have gone through psychiatric programs and three ex gay programs with no change. I have excepeted my sexual orientation. I can not change to heterosexual no more then a straight guy can change to be a hmosexual. My only choice is beliving in his forgiveness and his promise never to leave me or forsake me I stand on his rock beliving in his grace. I Need your prayers and support as the other guys who are struggling with this and if you should ever meet any one of us or maybe someone in your local church who is struggling with this Please reach out to them. Be a friend with Jesus in your heart and not judging them We all were a mask and hope that no one will see are pain. We hurt so much inside and liv in fear we go home and when alone we cry and some think of ending it.
Again may I please ask for your friendship and prayers.I will pray for all of you.Anyone who would like to pm me please do.

 

[writergirl4god]

Hi John,

You absolutely have my prayers and support. I don't struggle with homosexuality myself, but I have a dear Christian friend who does and for him I've learned a lot about it. I will be praying for you in general, and if you have any specific prayer requests or if there's anything else I can do, please let me know.

E-hugs from a sister in Christ,
Jess

 

[RD1981]

Hi John, I can sense your pain and want to see you set free. I wish things like this could change instantly in your mind but I guess it's not that way. Sometimes i think it's something in the brain too. But I read in the bible where it says God gave them over to their own lusts, because the people forgot about him. That makes me think that it would take us all to repent in order to overcome this stuff. But hey you said you aren't active with another person so it's just a mind battle. Please know that I love you and want to see you free just as bad as you do. I've never been in a relationship with another male but I know a few gay/lesbian people and I feel sorry that you all who want to be free are going through this. What hurt me the most is when I had feelings for a girl only to find out that she likes other girls. We dated for a few months but we never were fully intimate. I felt she was the one for me and I still havent found anyone else better. Because of all this, I started learning more about this and praying that God would deliver all of you. Not just her because I wanted to be with her, but this all opened my eyes. I don't think a day goes by that I dont alteast hope the things change for you all, wether you think you were born like that or not. I don't think people are born that way but I think some people have certain temptations.

 

[John Page]

Hi! thanks so much brother for reaching out to me with the love of Jesus in your heart and your prayers and support I really can not express in words how much your words mean to me. I live a life of depresson, fear, guilt, shame. I am so tired of people hating me calling me names and wanting to beat me with a bat for somthing I never wanted to be.I felt like this since i was 11 years old and have always hated it. I am not active and pray everyday to stay strong and free of sin.I hurt so much on inside and when alone and nobody sees the tears flow down my face. I am sorry that you were hurt by that girl and I will pray for you that you find that special one in your life. Again THANKS for being a christian brother to me and to all the other brothers who are hurting with this struggle.

 

[golfer45]

just know john you are not alone, there are so many times i get free, and then just want and need the touch and hug of a man. i am so much better than before, and have alot of blocks where i can not be tempted. I know that being around real men of God that know my history and show me unconditional love is where i get my healing.

 

[Dirtydeak]

I just wanted to reply saying that you are loved, and you are forgiven as you are. I have had four gay lovers in my life, and can promise you that God loves the sinner with a contrite heart. By far I have made paul a lier when he said he is cheifest of sinners. Yet, I confess Jesus a lord, and God. He is my savior, and I know if you truely seek to be delivered, he will deliver you. Gay, or not........ Jesus loves you, forgives you, and in him you can find true love...... Deliverance....... Forgiveness, and aceptance. May God help you through these hard times, and grant your heart be open to hear his word.

 

[Fowler]

Hello John!

I am not homosexual but will mention you in my daily prayers! We are all with you! You were not, arent and will be never forsaken!

God Bless You!