asking for prayer

[dizzydoll]

My mom suspected that my father was sexually abusing me but did not take stern proactive measures to protect me because she did not want to face things. Both parents phyically, violently, verbally, emotionally abused me. She blames me. He died 4 yrs ago. Last year my brother passed. She and I are left. I have forgiven but it is hard to be around her. She judges other people and condemms bad parenting of others in front of me. I have been spirtually aborted. It hurts to hear things come out of her mouth because no one was ever held accountable. She beleives I put myself in a position to be sexually abused. I want to dissacociate from her but because of the situation I'm in I can't. I forgive her, provide for her needs but say away however I can. I need prayer. I hate feeling like a victum. People often try and take advantage of that in one way or another. It is awful how people can be, rude and abusive because they can get away with it. I feel sorry for them how weak they must be if abusing others in any way makes them feel powerful. Thankful for Jesus.
Izzy
Ps not cleaning up any more messes for anyone else.

 

[myanchor]

Will pray for you IZZY. You are right to stay away from her, she is toxic. Does your husband know and has he helped you deal with this? My wife's mom was a real piece of work and very controlling. I fought to support my dear wife and pull her away from her mom. But there is only so much I could do. Pour out your heart to your hubbie as well as Jesus 'cuz God made him to be your knight.

 

[goldenviolet]

izzy, bless your heart. you are right in your feelings; and it's right, not to be yoked together with the unhealthy things/people. bless your heart. this "pull" you have because it's just you and her, needs clear boundies. boundries of the heart. i'm actually in the same position with my mom. she lives in a land inside her head, and won't come out to reality. she's not even aware she does it. forgiving her is a chore, since i hold her guilty too... but i understand she's also a victim too... bless your heart. it's alot to manage through. xo dee

 

[pennsyginny]

While I feel sure my mom knew about my dad abusing me, I never wanted it confirmed. They are both gone now but in their later years I just bit my tongue and gave respect. I gave dad respect even though I could not love. I was never able to forgive him until after he was dead. I know it is so hard. Just hang in there and someday it will be over and for now protect yourself as much as you can and draw strength and sustenance from those you can and from the Lord.

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, Izzy.

 

[bubblefish]

Will be praying Izzy