I was convinced by bad evidence that God was real. That bad evidence included feelings, apologist arguments, unexplained experiences, dreams, accepting what preachers said without questioning it too much.
So you acknowledge that you didn't have an actual, real, personal relationship with God in which you prayed, felt led, guided by him, convicted of sin, or affirmed by Him through good or bad times?
I never thought to see what non theists arguments were. It was really when I learned how to determine truth in a logical way did I realize my reasons were unsound and I became unconvinced that a God exists.
That's interesting because there are lots of people with actual degrees that are much much more educated than you are that have come to the exact opposite conclusion. Why do you think that is? What do you know that they're missing?
I don't know what I actually saw or if I saw anything, but I have no good reason to believe it was supernatural.
Unless God exists, then you have every reason to believe that it was supernatural. That, and you claim to have actually seen it. You don't have a natural explanation for what you saw. That is reason to believe it may have been supernatural.
My wife and I prayed and my daughter said it was gone. We never heard about Osiris again. At the time I was convinced by my experience and my christian belief that it was a demon or something like that. However, now I realize I have no good reason to believe anything was actually there.
You only believe you have no good reason because you now no longer believe God exists. If God does exist, then a perfectly valid, rational explanation would be that it was a real experience.
You don't like when people question the genuineness of your previous faith. Yet, you admit to having a faith built upon bad evidence, with a very shallow belief system in which you did not critically study. You admit to spending 18 years asking God to reveal Himself and claiming that He never once revealed Himself to you in 18 years.
I've gone through my share of doubting experiences. I mentioned in a previous topic that magically got deleted after I posted that I've lost a child, I almost lost my wife, and as a foster parent, my wife and I have seen first hand just how terrible people can be treated.
Yet, I
know that God is real. I've spent time overseas where I've seen things that most Americans would be left in utter bewilderment over. Satan is very specific and strategic in how he attacks us. For most Americans, he's done a great job at pretending like he doesn't exist.
He tries to downplay everything spiritual to the point where people are nothing short of foolish to even think the supernatural exists. God isn't real. He doesn't answer prayers, science can account for everything, supernatural experiences are made up in our heads. You've convinced that the two inexplicable events in your life are made up because you've convinced yourself God can't exist.
Honestly, go to India, go to South Africa. You'll see stuff that you can't explain. Satan attacks people differently there. They don't deny the supernatural like Americans do. Satan is just cunning in a different way and uses the supernatural to support things other than Christianity.
But for me, because I've seen with my own eyes, and experienced with my own body things that cannot be naturally explained, it's very hard to doubt that God exists. That, coupled with the fact that I do experience Him on a daily basis (which it doesn't sound like you ever did) that I can't say He doesn't exist.