As I try to escape

[redblue22]

As I try to escape and gain comfort another OCD drags me back in. I try to take comfort in knowing an OCD thought is just the OCD. People encourage and I start to feel better. I don't feel insane, guilty, or scared. Then I stop and realize how I feel.

I feel like I don't deserve to feel better having such thoughts. What kind of person am I to have OCD thoughts and not be bothered by them? Maybe they aren't OCD thoughts afterall because I am not scared, guilty, or afraid.

I realize that is just OCD too. And of course there is another OCD that says I should feel bad for this OCD about not feeling bad for the original OCD. It is sheer madness!

 

[OCD=Owie]

Indeed it is. Just when you stop worrying, you start to worry about not worrying. But you have to treat every manifestation of OCD the same way. Don't feed it by considering you OCD fears. Just go about your life without trying to push the thoughts out of your head. They can bounce around in your head all they want, but that doesn't mean you want them. In fact, it's really the only way to stop them.

 

[gracealone]

Hi Red/Owie,
Megga Dittos to what you both said. Been down that same road. It's almost seems that the disorder is sneaky or crafty. In reality it's just that there is still this unsettled feeling - I call it free floating anxiety. That feeling will usually want to have something to be upset about so our brain pushes us to find something to keep being upset about. So not being upset then becomes a cause to be upset. It's great to recognize this before we hop back on the hamster wheel. We can then say...."nice try, but I'm not going there with you!"
Good stuff guys!
Mitzi

As I try to escape and gain comfort another OCD drags me back in. I try to take comfort in knowing an OCD thought is just the OCD. People encourage and I start to feel better. I don't feel insane, guilty, or scared. Then I stop and realize how I feel.

I feel like I don't deserve to feel better having such thoughts. What kind of person am I to have OCD thoughts and not be bothered by them? Maybe they aren't OCD thoughts afterall because I am not scared, guilty, or afraid.

I realize that is just OCD too. And of course there is another OCD that says I should feel bad for this OCD about not feeling bad for the original OCD. It is sheer madness!