Are there others like me, and if so what are they called?

[chilehed]

Are there others like me, and if so what are they called?...

Yep, there are plenty like you. They're called "confused".

 

[Bain_Adaneth]

You said:
[I am only going to live my life by what Jesus and God said directly and everything else I am just going to use as a reference.]


The Bible says:
1 Corinthians 6:9
9Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals,
10nor thieves, nor the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers, will inherit the kingdom of God.

You said:
[I am not against homosexuality or alternative lifestyles.]
Looks like you’re already contradicting what your first statement.

[I do not care if God told me to kill everyone in a village, I am not going to kill a baby.]

You're more righteous than God?

[I want to believe in God but many of the things that happened in the old testament I think were man inspired and the laws of the land at that time.]

No, they are not just thought up by men. Everything is written by men according to God’s Words. You either believe the whole thing or don’t. Sounds like you just want to pick out what works for you and throw away whatever doesn’t work for you. A lot of people like it that way. But Jesus teaches that those who are children of the kingdom are those who follow His commandments.

 

[milkyway]

If I do decide to be a full fledged Christian again I want to be a liberal this time. I am only going to live my life by what Jesus and God said directly and everything else I am just going to use as a reference. I want to believe in God but many of the things that happened in the old testament I think were man inspired and the laws of the land at that time. I do not believe the story of "Job" should be in the bible. I am not against homosexuality or alternative lifestyles. It is hard for me to come to terms with all the killing in the old testament. I do not care if God told me to kill everyone in a village, I am not going to kill a baby. It seems to me there are people who are not Christian who live better lives then some people who call themselves Christian. What about people who have been abused by people who call themselves Christian. what if these abused people are so scared by what these false Christians did, that the mere thought of god scares that person to death? I have many reasons why my spirituality is conflict. I do not want to go to hell, but I do not want to live my life in a way that makes everyone else happy. I am more comfortable being myself. It seems to me that many people who are free spirits are happier then people who are fundamentalist and repressed. Anyone know if there are others like me?

As more and more people are discovering, it is perfectly possible to live a happy, fulfilled, caring life without feeling the need to believe in a god:

“It took me years, but letting go of religion has been the most profound wake up of my life. I feel I now look at the world not as a child, but as an adult. I see what's bad and it's really bad. But I also see what is beautiful, what is wonderful. And I feel so deeply appreciative that I am alive. How dare the religious use the term 'born again.' That truly describes freethinkers who've thrown off the shackles of religion so much better!”
~Julia Sweeney