All Christians are prophet, priest and king in and with Jesus. All the things you desire you have to loose first of all. Once your big I is dead you can be transformed by the word and learn to walk like Jesus did, not before.
i advise you to not just seek help from people but much rather from Jesus Christ Himself. You can get into contact with Him by putting your faith in His love and heeding all the things written in His word.
The Living word is the Voice of Jesus in our hearts and He takes us away from the big wanting to be and makes us humble want to be.
Honest we have to get rid of all the spiritual enemies we meet in our inner chambers. The voices of dishonesty, arrogance, pride, greed, lust, perversion of God's truth as well as guilt, despair, shame, hopelessness and fear need to be overcome with God's loving truth.
This is the goal that you become a humble, meek truthfully loving person in all your heart, for God our Heavenly Father delights in such a heart very much.
Be of good courage with Jesus onboard you can scale mountains and escape the inner carnage and despair that has hold of you now.
Peace.
An invitation to The Chosen.
God's Love will not take or will
you to conform to rules or demand
which imprison, enslave, burn or kill you.
God's Love will not pervert what's Good
The Lord loves truthfully Wise and Good.
True Love was, is and always will be Good!
In God's Love you are free to be right!
In His love everything is good proper and kind.
He loves all who love good and true to rule!
His Love is caring, providing, and sharing.
His Love always enjoys and protects good life.
His love rules even when bad life has being in us!
Hear Jesus call - 'Come join up with us all!
Leave whatever ties you down and be free
loving good life with all God's own to be.'
To the rest in your heart God's asks
how long will you tarry in the darkness?
Please leave such bad existence within.
For life must not, no never should, or would, or could,
be forceful, rude, prideful, arrogant, selfish, lustful
or otherwise be untrue to God's loving truth.
Neither should life be hurting or ill,
hungry, oppressed, despised, hated
or otherwise have existence in wrong.
Please hand your Bad Life over to Jesus
Humbly ask for His Good Life back in return
and go love God, self and neighbour with Joy.
The Church knows that Jesus is coming soon
All bad life will be our shameful past then,
so please leave your bad life while you can!
Love