i hate having anxiety about thinking I’m already have the mark of the beast (like somehow it was given to me without my knowledge)
I hate it.
Sweet child of God, the Lord will not lead you astray when that time comes. Take heart that to receive the mark of the beast is not something that will be forced upon us, the mark of the beast is a choice, if you choose to deny Christ in the last days, you will receive the mark of Satan meaning that you of your own free will, chose to follow him. If you deny to follow the beast, you will receive the seal of God and will be saved for the day of judgment when the Lord will read the names found in the book of life. God is good and if there is any doubt within your heart about whether you're saved or not, that's proof that you are saved because that fear will bring you closer to God and once you've truly accepted Christ as your Lord and saviour and asked for forgiveness of your sins, the Lord puts his seal upon you you are sealed until the day of judgment, you belong to God and no power in all of creation can take you from Him.
I am also all too familiar with anxiety, panic attacks and a mental illness, so I know what it feels like to be afraid all the time and worry about my salvation and the salvation of those whom I love and care about. What has helped me is remaining in constant prayer with God, talking to Him imagining Him sitting, standing or walking right beside me. Everyday, pray for the full armour of God to shield you from this world and the devil and whenever you are afraid, pray.. In the name of Jesus you have no power over me Satan!
Isaiah 26:3 New King James Version (NKJV)
3 You will keep
him in perfect
Whose mind
is stayed
on You,
Because he trusts in You.
Ephesians 6:10-20 New King James Version (NKJV)
The Whole Armor of God
Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints— and for me, that utterance may be given to me, that I may open my mouth boldly to make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains; that in it I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.