I am finding myself quite ashamed and embarrassed as I come to you all for a little advice. I come heavily burdened and weak in spirt.
For the past few months I have been struggling with an eating disorder. I know that a few months isnt really a big deal but I know exactly where I will end up if I continue on this path of self destruction and abuse. I've been here before, about # years ago where my life nearly ended. I never thought I would relapse, ever. When I was finished with my treatment every one was so proud of me and so I was. I thanked and praise God everyday for freeing me from my addiction praying never to be there again. But here I am, once again.
I am coming for advice because I feel stuck, I dont really know what to do. I hold a leadership position in my church, working with Jr. high girls, I tell them all the time that they are perfect, they are just the way they were meant to be and I am going to school to be a clinical psychology, more specifically, clinical psychology for women and female adolences struggling with depression, eating disorders and abuse. Kinda ironic, I know. I am open and ready to receive treatment once again but I guess Im not sure who to go to. I go to a large church and there are plenty of women there that I trust, but I cant go back and disappoint them all. I am so ashamed and embarrassed that Im here again. I guess I just dont know where to go from here. Im not asking for advice for recovery, I know all about it, Im just asking if anyone knows of the next step... if you understand what I am saying. Maybe a way to approach someone about it of something. If any one has any advice or encouraging verse, please share it with me.
For the past few months I have been struggling with an eating disorder. I know that a few months isnt really a big deal but I know exactly where I will end up if I continue on this path of self destruction and abuse. I've been here before, about # years ago where my life nearly ended. I never thought I would relapse, ever. When I was finished with my treatment every one was so proud of me and so I was. I thanked and praise God everyday for freeing me from my addiction praying never to be there again. But here I am, once again.
I am coming for advice because I feel stuck, I dont really know what to do. I hold a leadership position in my church, working with Jr. high girls, I tell them all the time that they are perfect, they are just the way they were meant to be and I am going to school to be a clinical psychology, more specifically, clinical psychology for women and female adolences struggling with depression, eating disorders and abuse. Kinda ironic, I know. I am open and ready to receive treatment once again but I guess Im not sure who to go to. I go to a large church and there are plenty of women there that I trust, but I cant go back and disappoint them all. I am so ashamed and embarrassed that Im here again. I guess I just dont know where to go from here. Im not asking for advice for recovery, I know all about it, Im just asking if anyone knows of the next step... if you understand what I am saying. Maybe a way to approach someone about it of something. If any one has any advice or encouraging verse, please share it with me.
that's it! 
Take care and dont be discouraged. Struggles can make us stronger.
