Hi friends
Scriptures mention something on the order of: "WAIT on the Lord". had I understood better, most likely - (under the belief of *Living for others... = Heaven*, always helping/encouraging others... for decades,
even at expense perpetually of sleep) - I would not have 'sacrificed...' myself.
After that life's tsunami... washed me ashore 95% dead, on zero-energy to breathe, & NO-food digesting, & NO-strength to stand, &
Adrenaline/Cortisol robbing me of any ability to sleep I was facing a "rocking-chair"

existence, 4 docs said.
Fortunately a wise person, aided by my own voice deep inside me, said "You were not born, to
only die like that. You can/will stop now - coming to everyone else's rescue, & championing them, endlessly.
What activity

would you really enjoy Learning, Annie? - something that profoundly & full re-ignites your LIFE-passion,
& helps you again SPARKLE like you naturally do. Choose a JOY
just for you, this time"
And that activity, (after my dark night of the soul in '99), I realized would be *Ice-skating* but
None thot I'd ever lace-up
my 1st. pair of skates, in that state! Docs were stunned: "
ICE-skating?!?
hey, you've lost nigh all your bone-density, for ending-up in a Body-cast. Have you lost your mind!?!"
I said: "Yes, I am bound, to lose whatever mind got me into this state, of 9.5 toes in the grave. And
somehow instead, I am going to become the *Ice-skater* I have it yet in me to be.
And GOD will Bless me (with the
reciprocal-kind of championing folk, I have served as for everyone else) to
help
me make my dream...become a true Reality....
and in this process, I will yet Ably continue to PRAISE GOD, by serving as yet Encouragement for others...
The docs, in 99-2000 said "NO-way! No-matter how athletic you once were.
For you, that is now utterly impossible" - including one coach,
who came close to having me die right during a practice. 120% freaked-out,
the only way I survived what had happened to me, was to totally dis-sociate, ie
withdrew from feeling anything, going wrong with my body.
And yet, the more often I got *on the ice* (practically only skill I could safely practice =Forward-swizzles ) -
little by little, my brain & body did
start mending & healing - and in that process,
with my daughter's sweet help & encouragements - in 2002, I got brave-enough to
participate in "Group lessons", & that same year...
2 beginning-skating Tests, I *passed*
But, the sweetness of this success, was
marred because 2 more Figure-skating coaches,
gave up on me WHY? - I wasn't able on their timeline, to Advance to *Freestyle*,
yet
Aiming to encourage me,
Invited next 3-years to play in Halloween-Skating contests, I was awarded the prize 2 yrs. ago.
And inevitably, (& driving CFer's 'nuts' ) - I developed a
full-fledged passion
So I prayed to the LORD "Please Lord, point me to a young skater, commanding an Axel,
with a sense of *wanting* to help me, who knows I can - and who will help me succeed" - and
GOD answered, just before Christmas. For sure, I continue progressing ... for one thing,
I am learning my (BOE's =
Back-Outside-Edges) now; and when I have them , I can JUMP!!
so, who (aside my 7 now) Gladly will continue as my Cheerleaders, eh?
Annie