Anger & Grief...

[MotoKeeper]

Hello. I went through some tough and confusing times in my early twenties. Things didn't work out well, or at least how I thought God should have worked them out anyhow. I felt as though God refused to help me in anything, and I grew angry at Him. Eventually, I let lashed out at Him in a fit of rage.

Is any of this normal when feeling grief? Has anyone else ever let God have it with both barrels (i.e. cursing and swearing)? Thanks.

 

[DedicatedLittleFaith]

Oh yes. When my mother died, I was EXTREMELY angry with God.

Mother had Breast Cancer. Things were ok after her first treatment She eve went back to work. Than the darn cancer came back. She fought bravely for near 5 years. And I prayed, and I hoped. After all, God can do anything He wills to can He not? But His Divin plan did not include curing my mother,,,, and He called her home at the age of 51

Angry you say? Angry does not even START to describe how I was feeling then; and it wasn't that long ago either: Mother died in May of 2005. If memory serves, I did not go as far as swearing and cursing,,, but ya I let Him have it alright! Then I didn't speak to Him for,,, gosh I don't know how long.

But everything is settling down now. I am re-establishing my relationship with Him. I reverted to Catholicism, which is the church in which I met Him in the first place. I still get upset, but I don't speak to Him in anger anymore,,, I've reached the stage where, when my grief really hits, I just pray and ask "Why?" No anger, no rage, just a daughter asking a question to her Divin Father.

Hope this little testimony helps.

 

[coolman01]

It is actually quite common, and one of the steps in Elizabeth Kubler Ross's stages of grieving. A good read would be "On Death and Dying". A part of this book describes each stage of grief, and then takes it and breaks it down on an incredible level. It can show you how anger and death relates to the whole process of grif, and this book can be very helpful in understing your emotion on a broader, more intimate level.

 

[MotoKeeper]

Thanks for replying to my post. I've read of others getting angry at God and asking "why?" I just feel as though I've taken things too far with my lashing out and swearing at Him. I feel unique in this respect. I guess I'd like to hear from someone who's repsonded the same as me... hate to be alone in this.

 

[allthatisgone]

It is very normal, that is, if you're not strongly connected to God thru it. How you deal w/ nethin always depends on your relationship with Him at the time.