There is right now, a turning point in my life... which I feel is a call from God. However, I am uncertain whether it is God who calls me, or whether it is not.
To obey God in this turning point comes with a heavy cost. And so, if I am to obey him, I must first be sure that it is really a call from him. I need an answer fast, because... any delay will result in me making the wrong choice in life. The lord has sent me a vision and a dream to confirm the call, but I still do not feel right about this.
Here is what God is calling me to do.
He is calling me to quit university, to let go of my education, and then wait for him. He never tells me to wait for what. He just says, wait and I will see the answer.
My examination is coming soon, and yet each time I tried to study, my heart will be troubled. Then, the lord will lead me to go and read his words, instead.
In a dream that the lord shows me, he shows that the reason I am not willing to believe this is a call from him is because of my fear of the consequences of obeying him. My relationship with my mother is what makes me hesitate.
The vision I see is this. I enter the university in darkness and step out of it into light. Then, the lord explains... going into the university is not his call for me, and that is why he is now bringing me out of it. I ask, To where? His response, Wait.
Pray for me.
Recently, no matter how hard I tried, I just cannot focus on my study. To focus on my study, I have to ignore and avoid the lord. The lord tells me, I am running away from my call because of my fear of men, and because of a lack of trust in him.
Pray for me.
Your sister,
Agape Jasmine
If the lord gives you an answer in regard to this, or shows you a vision, do not hesitate to convey it to me. Tell me what the lord is telling you about this.
Pray to the lord... to put confirmation into my heart, if this is really from him. If not, to take away the deception and allow me to focus on my study, again.
To obey God in this turning point comes with a heavy cost. And so, if I am to obey him, I must first be sure that it is really a call from him. I need an answer fast, because... any delay will result in me making the wrong choice in life. The lord has sent me a vision and a dream to confirm the call, but I still do not feel right about this.
Here is what God is calling me to do.
He is calling me to quit university, to let go of my education, and then wait for him. He never tells me to wait for what. He just says, wait and I will see the answer.
My examination is coming soon, and yet each time I tried to study, my heart will be troubled. Then, the lord will lead me to go and read his words, instead.
In a dream that the lord shows me, he shows that the reason I am not willing to believe this is a call from him is because of my fear of the consequences of obeying him. My relationship with my mother is what makes me hesitate.
The vision I see is this. I enter the university in darkness and step out of it into light. Then, the lord explains... going into the university is not his call for me, and that is why he is now bringing me out of it. I ask, To where? His response, Wait.
Pray for me.
Recently, no matter how hard I tried, I just cannot focus on my study. To focus on my study, I have to ignore and avoid the lord. The lord tells me, I am running away from my call because of my fear of men, and because of a lack of trust in him.
Pray for me.
Your sister,
Agape Jasmine
If the lord gives you an answer in regard to this, or shows you a vision, do not hesitate to convey it to me. Tell me what the lord is telling you about this.
Pray to the lord... to put confirmation into my heart, if this is really from him. If not, to take away the deception and allow me to focus on my study, again.
Praying 
