I need to apologize to that read the thread where I dais good-bye. I hope that you understand that at that time it took all that I had to get that out. In the past I have gone to counselors and therapists. They only touched on the outside not on the inside. They helped me to keep the wrapping of my package together and well wrapped. (Me , Myself) And now I am with a therapist that wants to unwrap it, get to what is inside, and figure what it is that is causing the unhappiness, hurt, and despair. Before I had a label or two. Now with the research and timed that I have spent with this therapist she has given me the proper diagnoses. I am going off my meds wich were not helping just making things worse. And multiplying problems. During this time things have became even worse to deal with but I'm making it through it all as best as I can. And I'm finally getting to sleep more then a couple of hours in a week. So for today things are ok. I can't say that I feel excitement but because of a life wrapped in the numbing package would I know if I felt it? Anyway I have came to some new agreements with my therapist. She will weigh me in her office. Unstead of being weighed at the doctors were there was always someone different. I will not look and she will not tell. Becausse of the OCD I would try to control the numbers. For trade I am to start counting the amount of calories that she will provide me with. If I don't get to the number given I don't get to exchange it for exercise. I will give this all a go and see where it takes me. I took time away from here because I was struggeling so bad and letting things in here trigger and keep me down. I hope that those offended will forgive.


