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I need to apologize to that read the thread where I dais good-bye. I hope that you understand that at that time it took all that I had to get that out. In the past I have gone to counselors and therapists. They only touched on the outside not on the inside. They helped me to keep the wrapping of my package together and well wrapped. (Me , Myself) And now I am with a therapist that wants to unwrap it, get to what is inside, and figure what it is that is causing the unhappiness, hurt, and despair. Before I had a label or two. Now with the research and timed that I have spent with this therapist she has given me the proper diagnoses. I am going off my meds wich were not helping just making things worse. And multiplying problems. During this time things have became even worse to deal with but I'm making it through it all as best as I can. And I'm finally getting to sleep more then a couple of hours in a week. So for today things are ok. I can't say that I feel excitement but because of a life wrapped in the numbing package would I know if I felt it? Anyway I have came to some new agreements with my therapist. She will weigh me in her office. Unstead of being weighed at the doctors were there was always someone different. I will not look and she will not tell. Becausse of the OCD I would try to control the numbers. For trade I am to start counting the amount of calories that she will provide me with. If I don't get to the number given I don't get to exchange it for exercise. I will give this all a go and see where it takes me. I took time away from here because I was struggeling so bad and letting things in here trigger and keep me down. I hope that those offended will forgive.
 

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I would like to Thank Golden Violet for all her time and love that she has spent on me. She has helped me more then she will ever know. God has given me a true, and trusting sister in her. One who has only good intentions at heart. She has helped me along in my growth in my spiritual and healing path. I am eternally Thankful to Him and her.:hug:
 
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:cry: i heart cold just burst from everything you wrote. (tears from your second post *warmhug*) i'm so happy that God is shining love and mercy upon you and that He has placed people in your life that understand and will help you manage these things. :clap:
(i'm speechless on the feedback. you have a huge place in my heart)
 
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I am so happy you have found a good therapist who is helping you in this way. It sounds like she is wise and has experience with your diagnoses.

I hope that I have not been one who has triggered you. My sharing here is from what has helped me in my journey, having been in treatment and therapy for years. My motivation has always been from a place of having been where the person who is hurting is, and knowing what has helped me get out of the ruts I have found myself.

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madison1101 said:
I am so happy you have found a good therapist who is helping you in this way. It sounds like she is wise and has experience with your diagnoses.

I hope that I have not been one who has triggered you. My sharing here is from what has helped me in my journey, having been in treatment and therapy for years. My motivation has always been from a place of having been where the person who is hurting is, and knowing what has helped me get out of the ruts I have found myself.

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It has not been you. There is so much that I deal with. With other diagnoses. I fell on my own and did not choose to get up when I had hands to help me get up. There is more then what I share on here. I took time to spend just on myself, to figure things out. I wanted to be away from hurt. Others aw well as my own. I needed to spend time in my cacoon.
 
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Daysoni said:
It has not been you. There is so much that I deal with. With other diagnoses. I fell on my own and did not choose to get up when I had hands to help me get up. There is more then what I share on here. I took time to spend just on myself, to figure things out. I wanted to be away from hurt. Others aw well as my own. I needed to spend time in my cacoon.
It is okay that we go into our own cocoon now and then. Jesus often went off by Himself to get alone with the Father. We need that solitary time with the Lord more and more as we heal. You don't ever have to apologize for that time you spend away with just you and the Lord. Just don't spend your time away from us away from Him too. He longs to heal you as you go through your new therapy.

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Daysoni said:
It has not been you. There is so much that I deal with. With other diagnoses. I fell on my own and did not choose to get up when I had hands to help me get up. There is more then what I share on here. I took time to spend just on myself, to figure things out. I wanted to be away from hurt. Others aw well as my own. I needed to spend time in my cacoon.

Daysoni, I am glad you took care of yourself by taking the time you needed to focus on you. Sometimes we do forget to tend to ourselves the way we tend to others.

I hope you are getting more good rest. I always find good sleep can help everything. I'll be praying for you. I know this journey is hard.:prayer:
 
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I hope I didn't trigger you. Daysoni, you are wonderful to have around here, I wish you well and I pray for your continued strength in recovery. You have a support network here of friends who are willing to pray for you and talk to you, keep you goal-orientated, if you wish to use us in that way. :hug:

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Byootaful said:
I hope I didn't trigger you. Daysoni, you are wonderful to have around here, I wish you well and I pray for your continued strength in recovery. You have a support network here of friends who are willing to pray for you and talk to you, keep you goal-orientated, if you wish to use us in that way. :hug:

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It's not the people here that were the trigger. It's just when I'm struggeling and I'm reading of others struggles I began to only see the negative in my ED. Then that is what I would dwell on. And I started to give up again. I had to step away to collect my self and thoughts and dive depp into things in therapy. I couldn't have any distraction's. So see every one it wasn't any of you it was me and where I was in my struggles. I'm much stronger today. It was me and the way I was dealing and copeing not any of you.
 
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Daysoni said:
It's not the people here that were the trigger. It's just when I'm struggeling and I'm reading of others struggles I began to only see the negative in my ED. Then that is what I would dwell on. And I started to give up again. I had to step away to collect my self and thoughts and dive depp into things in therapy. I couldn't have any distraction's. So see every one it wasn't any of you it was me and where I was in my struggles. I'm much stronger today. It was me and the way I was dealing and copeing not any of you.

I have had to step back from here too, to be able to really assess my situation. It takes a lot of strength to do that. :hug:
 
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I think we all ebb and flow in our recovery, and sometimes we need to pull away and regroup, alone, with the Lord. The important thing is to know that there is a group to which we can return for support and encouragement. Also important is to be giving the support, as we heal when we give of ourselves.

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madison1101 said:
I think we all ebb and flow in our recovery, and sometimes we need to pull away and regroup, alone, with the Lord. The important thing is to know that there is a group to which we can return for support and encouragement. Also important is to be giving the support, as we heal when we give of ourselves.

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I started posting Positive things from my Treatment Binder and other things that I am learning that are helping me in a thread here in the ED forums. It's called Ways To Love Your Body. Any one feel free to post things that help them. I will pm, post, and chat as much as I can. This is the first time that I am putting my healing first. It's hard and it's scary. I still want to help others. It's just at times I tend to get wrapped up in others and forget about my healing. Please be patient with me. And post positive things in my other post. Thank you
 
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