I'm not sure at all how to start this off...
I have a few questions to let loose.
I'm currently 17, living with my parents, and relatlively new to the Christian faith. One of my major problems is anxiety, as you'll probably see later on in my post. While I've been in the Lord for my whole life, I'm still in the process of converting Christianity into my OWN religion and not just something that my parents believe.
My life has been rather plain; no big changes or incredible relevations.. so the conversion has been lacking (compared to the stories I've heard, at least!). I have no idea how to the come to the Lord even while I've attended church, spoken to Chrisitian friends, and have cried out to Him so many times. I pray regulary but I just don't feel like its there. My faith revolves in my head; a simple solution to the worlds creation. I WANT to believe and I WANT to have faith, but I just don't get it. Its as if the thing is reversed -It's not in my heart but my mind screams out 'it's true'.
Lately I've been looking at my life; telling myself not to worry because I'm still being worked on, that the Lord is still working in my life. I know that the Lord gives eternal life to all those that believe and accept Him as Jesus Christ, their savior and the son of God and I've done so, myself (Four times!).
That's one issue.
Then there's an issue of sin; constantly conflicting and clashing with the thought of enternal life, saved by God's grace. My sins and works have no bearing on my life with God since I am saved by grace and not the acts of myself. So while keeping that in mind, I've recently come across information on the 'Unforgivable sin'. I realize this sin is obviously not commited if you worry of such --I worry anyway. I've worked and strived to be good and follow God's laws and submersed myself into several Christian debates on what's sinning and what's not. One of my friends and a parent spoke how watching television and role playing are very evil. How if you're thinking (while watching) and typing out (while role playing) an evil act, that you are actually comitting such. That really bugged me- as I do both. Because of this I've felt really anxious and depressed. I feel like every time do either of the two that I'm comitting a sin against God. However, I keep doing them regaurdless. It's my entertainment. Are these feelings the holy spirit telling me it's wrong? If I died right now would I burn forever in the lake of fire? Am I ignoring conviction and crossing the line, damning myself?
Please help!
I have a few questions to let loose.
I'm currently 17, living with my parents, and relatlively new to the Christian faith. One of my major problems is anxiety, as you'll probably see later on in my post. While I've been in the Lord for my whole life, I'm still in the process of converting Christianity into my OWN religion and not just something that my parents believe.
My life has been rather plain; no big changes or incredible relevations.. so the conversion has been lacking (compared to the stories I've heard, at least!). I have no idea how to the come to the Lord even while I've attended church, spoken to Chrisitian friends, and have cried out to Him so many times. I pray regulary but I just don't feel like its there. My faith revolves in my head; a simple solution to the worlds creation. I WANT to believe and I WANT to have faith, but I just don't get it. Its as if the thing is reversed -It's not in my heart but my mind screams out 'it's true'.
Lately I've been looking at my life; telling myself not to worry because I'm still being worked on, that the Lord is still working in my life. I know that the Lord gives eternal life to all those that believe and accept Him as Jesus Christ, their savior and the son of God and I've done so, myself (Four times!).
That's one issue.
Then there's an issue of sin; constantly conflicting and clashing with the thought of enternal life, saved by God's grace. My sins and works have no bearing on my life with God since I am saved by grace and not the acts of myself. So while keeping that in mind, I've recently come across information on the 'Unforgivable sin'. I realize this sin is obviously not commited if you worry of such --I worry anyway. I've worked and strived to be good and follow God's laws and submersed myself into several Christian debates on what's sinning and what's not. One of my friends and a parent spoke how watching television and role playing are very evil. How if you're thinking (while watching) and typing out (while role playing) an evil act, that you are actually comitting such. That really bugged me- as I do both. Because of this I've felt really anxious and depressed. I feel like every time do either of the two that I'm comitting a sin against God. However, I keep doing them regaurdless. It's my entertainment. Are these feelings the holy spirit telling me it's wrong? If I died right now would I burn forever in the lake of fire? Am I ignoring conviction and crossing the line, damning myself?
Please help!
~Cyberwing
