am I ???? bi

[GodsNikki]

Am I bipolor or do I just have anger and trust problems...I can take my anger to such a ugly place..That it becomes emotionally abusive...And the anger comes o nwhen I feel like I am not being heard...or Im being placed in an uncomfortable place...A place I don't trust..Not a real place but just a situation that I don't trust ...Like hubby changing the password to his email ,when he has used it in the past do something wrong..and then telling me I don't need to police that area of his life any more..I went crazy...Cause in my mind he was the one who harmed that area of our lives and now he wants to blame me for not trusting and wants to take away what he calls my control over his life...I was mad that he didn't talk to me and tell me he wanted me to take a step and let that go..I don't like finding out things like that on my own...Please just tell me...I was not mad as a child that there was no santa..I was mad that my mom did not tell me the truth...I trust with my hole heart ..until you lie to me and then I can not trust anything you say..I look for a motive in all you do based on your lie...With my hubby it's porn and the need for women to look at him ..It has in my eyes done so much damage to me and how I feel in our relationship..That I question his every move...Where are you going ..who is going to be there...Why are you looking at her..It has become hell for us both..And he blames it all on me and my mental problem..Which I am not sure yet which mental illness I suffer with ..I know I have some real stuff wrong that needs to get fixed....Do I sound bipolor...Im okay the best wife,,,Until he does something I dont feel comfortable with then a switch goes off and I am out of control...

 

[walshclan]

Nikki:

I am not a psychiatrist and only a psychiatrist can diagnose you.

If extreme anger in reaction to scary things happening to you is the main (and only) symptom I don't think you have bipolar. You however should see a psychiatrist because something is going on.

Connie

 

[Alive again]

Yes, there are many diagnoses with similiar symptoms and overlapping symptoms, a doctor can best help you sort this out. Even the docs may take time to find the right diagnosis or meds. The best thing you can do with a doc is be brutally honet iwth them, for any help they can give you i only based on what you share and there knowledge.

 

[walshclan]

Are you going to see a doc, Nikki? I want to be sure that you don't discount the idea of your being bp based on what I say.

Connie