I have been in known sin for all my life. I am afraid that I may have even stepped over the line and I fear it may be too late for me to repent from my sins.
I fear Esau tried to repent to God with tears and could not be forgiven, so he is in hell forever, and I fear I am in the same place Esau was in.
I am a slave to my sin, and I keep doing my sin, EVEN THOUGH JESUS TOLD ME NOT TO!!!
I want to genuinely repent of my sins, turn from my sin and glorify Jesus and the father and to be loved by them, but I am still in my sins, get distracted easily, not focusing on Jesus, and I fear I may be in a place with NO turning back.
Can you help me and pray for me? I hope I can still be saved and genuinely repent of my sin and SIN NO MORE.
Did you know that you are fulfilling 1 John 1:9? "If we confess our sins, God is faithful and just to forgive our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness." John also said, "If we say that we have no sin, we lie and the truth is not in us."
So, you have made probably the most important step toward God and Christ by fully acknowledging that you are a hopeless sinner, unable to stop in your own strength. Many who fall short of receiving Christ are not able to say what you just said.
You need to fall on Christ for mercy. The Scripture says, "Come boldly to the throne of grace that you may find mercy and grace to help in your time of need." Another Scripture says, "By grace you are saved through faith and not of yourself; it is the gift of God." Also, "All sin and iniquity shall be forgiven of men."
The next step for you is to believe that Jesus died for you on the cross and took your whole debt of sin on Himself and exchanged your sinfulness with His perfect righteousness.
Then you receive Jesus as your Lord and Saviour.
Then these are the things you can say about yourself, even before you do anything about your sins:
I am:
A child of God
A new creation in Christ
Jesus is my brother
Seated with Jesus at the right hand of God
Part of the family of God
Totally righteous in Christ
Not under any condemnation at all
Filled with the Holy Spirit
Blessed with every spiritual blessing in heavenly places
Have all authority over the devil and his demons
Able to come boldly to the throne of grace to find mercy and grace to help in time of need
Jesus is my refuge and strength, a very present help in time of trouble
The law of the Spirit of life has set me free from the law of sin and death
Jesus has set me free from the body of death
My sins have been removed from you as far as the east is from the west.
God has buried my sins in the deepest sea of His forgetfulness and put up a sign, "No fishing!"
Also, make these statements before God:
The armour of God is for, to provide me with the weapons of my warfare.
I have the helmet of salvation as a born again Christian,
I have the breastplate of the righteousness of Christ which has been given to me as a free gift from God,
I have the shield of faith to quench the fiery darts of the enemy,
I have the belt of truth - the foundation of God's Word,
My feet are shod with the gospel of peace.
I also have the sword of the Spirit, using the Word of God as a weapon against the doubts and fears the enemy would attack me in my mind,
I have the weapon of all-prayer, in which I can pour out my heart to God. The book of Psalms is a good guide about what to pray, and I am going to turn the psalms into my personal prayers.
Now, with the Holy Spirit within you, the process of sanctification and growth in holiness can start, and will continue for the rest of your life.