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[shye]

well I am typing this while crying. I have been holding in all my saddness for about a week. People think I am happy because how I act around them. I am always smileling and cracking jokes, but down deep inside I feel empty and emotionless. but tonight I just cant take it anymore. I was ****ed off all day. Everything that was coming out of my mouth was blunt and rude. And I was punching my punching bag trying to get my anger out. and now I am downstairs on the computer alone crying. I have started to cut again and been thinking about over dosing on sleeping pills. I cant take life much longer alone

 

[funky_chocolate]

you will get through your sadness even though it may seem impossible. Just keep on praying to God. Your life is precious and you should enjoy it Talk to family and close friends about it. Remember to always look on the bright side of life

 

[Kairos]

Hi, shye... have you seen a counselor about this? I think you should if you haven't. I'm sorry to know that you are hurting. I will keep you in my prayers and please, feel free to PM me at anytime. God bless and keep you in His care.

 

[goldenviolet]

shye, i think your age plays a big part in the way your body feels. some people need to physically work out frustrations. others don't need too.

being in God's word everyday and prayer will help soften your thoughts and help you through this too.

i'm glad you are reaching out. whay don't you use this thread to vent, talk, seek comfort, prayer, and fellowship on.

Dear Father, please take shye into your great arms of mercy and help him see some ways to find relief, and spiritual growth. Father please keep his hands and mind off of SIing and any other harmful actions. please bless this young man with wisdom to see that he is at an age where learning to manage is normal, and that each accomplishment makes him wiser and stronger to tempation... and builds his armor. in Jesus' name amen.

 

[shye]

shye, i think your age plays a big part in the way your body feels. some people need to physically work out frustrations. others don't need too.

being in God's word everyday and prayer will help soften your thoughts and help you through this too.

i'm glad you are reaching out. whay don't you use this thread to vent, talk, seek comfort, prayer, and fellowship on.

Dear Father, please take shye into your great arms of mercy and help him see some ways to find relief, and spiritual growth. Father please keep his hands and mind off of SIing and any other harmful actions. please bless this young man with wisdom to see that he is at an age where learning to manage is normal, and that each accomplishment makes him wiser and stronger to tempation... and builds his armor. in Jesus' name amen.

thanks for typing a prayer it made me tear up with happiness

 

[UnitynLove]

Did you know that God wants to make a trade with you? He has a standing offer every minute of every day and it's amazing how few of us actually take Him up on His offer. He wants you to give Him all your cares, your problems, and your failures. In return He will give you His peace and joy. On top of that, He promises to protect and take care of you.

God really does want to take care of us, but in order to let Him, we've got to stop trying to take care of ourselves and worrying about every little thing we can't control. Many people would like for God to take care of them, but they insist on worrying or trying to figure out an answer on their own, instead of waiting for God's direction. They wallow around in puddles of their own worry, wondering why God doesn't give them peace. God will give us peace, but we must first give Him our worries.

We give God our worries by trusting that He can and will take care of us. By trusting God, we are able to rest in Him, knowing that He has the situation well under control. Worry, on the other hand, is the opposite of trust. Worry steals our peace, wears us out physically and can even make us sick. If we are worrying, we are not fully trusting God, and we'll never be able to experience His peace.

What a great trade! We give God our worry—He gives us His peace. We give Him all our cares and concerns, and He gives us His protection, stability, and joy. That is the privilege of being cared for by Him.

Because He cares for us, He wants us to live in peace and not all tied up in knots of worry. He has ways of guiding us toward peace, if we are alert enough to sense His direction.

Imagine that you are driving down a road. Along the way, there are roadside signs that provide direction or give warning. If you pay attention to the signs and follow the words, you will be able to drive on that road and safely reach your destination.

In the same way, on the road of life there are spiritual signs along the way. In order to stay under God's protection, you must obey these signs that tell you to trust Him and not to worry. Don't be afraid, have courage. If you'll pay attention to these signs, you'll find that it's easy to stay on course. You will experience the protection, peace and joy that only God can provide.

However, if you fail to heed the signs, you may notice that the road seems a little bumpier than usual and you're not as confident in your ability as you once were. You may become anxious about the unknown things waiting around the corner, and you may even veer off the road.

Anxiety affects us like a double portion of worry. It's an uneasy feeling that lingers like a haze, even after we think we have dealt with it. Once we disregard the signs and go our own way, we are moving in the direction of fear--especially fear of tomorrow and fear of the unknown. The result is anxiety.

Anxiety is like putting on a heavy coat on a hot summer day. It weighs you down. It's difficult to move, and it's stifling to wear. According to Webster's Dictionary, anxiety is "a state of being uneasy, apprehensive, or worried...." Sometimes this uneasiness is really vague—something we just can't put our finger on. All we know is that we are uneasy.

You and I don't need to be anxious about tomorrow when we have all we can handle today. Even if we manage to solve all our problems today, we will just have more to deal with tomorrow...and even more the next day.

Why waste time worrying when it is not going to solve anything? Why be anxious about yesterday, which is gone, or tomorrow, which hasn't arrived yet? Trade your worries in today for God's peace. Remember, everything's going to be all right!

 

[Guineverelyndy]

Shye,

Have you ever been diagnosed with clinical depression? I had that for a long time, and no amount of "smile, be happy" could change how yucky I felt. It's a different kind of sad, isn't it? Funny though, if was during that time that God came for me the most. I didn't even realize that fully until it was over.

Father, You are the Almighty God and Your Son is the Man of Sorrows. You store all of our tears in Your bottle - not one single one goes unnoticed. Will You catch all Shye's tears tonight? Will You turn Shye's gaze onto You and how capable You are of coming to his defense and rescuing him. Will You show Him how good You are, even if you choose to allow him to stay in this place for a while so he has the blessing of coming to know how much he needs You (and gets that need met!). Father, I ask this in YOUR SON'S name. Amen.

 

[reverie_maiden]

well I am typing this while crying. I have been holding in all my saddness for about a week. People think I am happy because how I act around them. I am always smileling and cracking jokes, but down deep inside I feel empty and emotionless. but tonight I just cant take it anymore. I was ****ed off all day. Everything that was coming out of my mouth was blunt and rude. And I was punching my punching bag trying to get my anger out. and now I am downstairs on the computer alone crying. I have started to cut again and been thinking about over dosing on sleeping pills. I cant take life much longer alone

I am crying right now too. I always smile even though I feel horrible and empty inside. The reason I smile is because I hate when people ask what is wrong. Too many questions when I would rather not go into details of the depression I am under.

 

[Mayflower1]

I hope that you feel better soon shye.
"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." Phillippians 4:13 Drill it in your heart. You can get through this, you just have to keep fighting!!! I will pray for you. Best Wishes. Lily00