hello...evryone..i got widowed for five yrs now..and yes its true its not that easy to accept the loss of a loved-one..and father of my kids too..young as i am..i find it real hard to understand why it should happen..when God knows how much i value the completeness of a home..father,mother,children..i was even driven to a point of asking whats more important to do now..father's role or mother's role? considering that you cannot perform two roles at the same time and expect excellence..but as time passes..God in His loving-kindness, enable me to grasp little by little the answers i am trying to seek..that i am designed to be a mother..and now being taught to trust God in real sense of the word TRUST..now, more than ever i learned to depend on God's providences..and to my amazement..in His marvellous ways,..never once did i remember that He left us with no food on the table,no clothes to wear, and no home as a shelter, even in their educational needs, God consistently proves out that He is our Jehovah Jireh,the God who provides! 
