Alone and scared

[ShadowsChild]

Hey everyone,

I am going to reach out to you in this, because I don't know where else to go.
My cousins have left for a mini-vacation for the next few days, leaving me alone in the house. Fine... right? Maybe not so much.

You see, not only is it New Years tomorrow, but it also would have been me and my now ex-husbands 5 year anniversary. For those of you that aren't aware.. I just left an abusive relationship.. took me years to get out but I finally did it.

Truthfully, I am scared.. I am trying to arrange to do SOMETHING with some friends, so that I am not alone. I mean, even if I can't I need to be functional enough to take care of Phenix (my daughter) but still...

The battle has been rough for the past few days... I feel more tired than I have in a long while, but yet I can never seem to fall asleep before 1 AM.

Anyways, your support and encouragement over the next few days would be very much appreciated. I will be checking back here often, just for my own personal sanity.

Thanks everyone, even though it may seem like I am nothing more than an antagonist - I really do appreciate everyone and every word on here - whether directed at me or not.

 

[madison1101]

I am sorry you are struggling this weekend. I have experienced the kind of loneliness you are going through now. I went through a divorce 11 years ago, and it sucked. To make things worse, I went through empty nest the same year. All my kids moved to different parts of the country as young adults.

I have learned to make my own fun, and to take God at His Word, that I am not alone. I have spent many a New Years Eve alone, e-mailing friends, reaching out to people I have lost touch with.

This Winter, I am volunteering with the homeless, a ministry my church is involved with, along with other local churches. I get so much gratitude working with those folks. Consider finding some place to volunteer occassionally, and see if this time next year you are feeling better.

If you must spend New Years Eve alone, spend some time asking the Lord to show you some place you can reach out to those less fortunate. There are drug rehabs, hospitals, Special Olympics, homeless shelters. I am sure you can find a ton of ideas

 

[Dianna_Child of God]

I hope as the weekend goes on the struggle feels less. Is there even one friend you could hang out with that would be an issue? Someone you could invite over instead of going out?

 

[ShadowsChild]

Not really.. I dont have a lot of friends left because of the realtionship I left - he alienated me from everyone I knew. And the few friends I do have, none really have kids so they are all out doin there own thing tonight *sigh* The choices we make..........

 

[Dianna_Child of God]

Not really.. I dont have a lot of friends left because of the realtionship I left - he alienated me from everyone I knew. And the few friends I do have, none really have kids so they are all out doin there own thing tonight *sigh* The choices we make..........

I am sorry that happened when you left the relationship. That is unfair to you.

 

[Yusuphhai]

I can understand the symptoms of Alone and scared. Just be strong and go through ,dear friend. So many go with you.