Not really Christian so I hope you don't mind me posting here. Just kinda upset about my life and the path I've been going down for what seems like a lifetime. The holidays for people like me that don't really have a place to go is just really difficult I think and makes you think about your choices. Can't say that my first choice for places to be on Thanksgiving would be in a strip club that I can hardly believe is open. Like I said though not about to sit around with family that I don't have and talk over coffee so mine as well make money right? It's usually just the weirdo's andpeople with no place like you that turn up on holidaysthough. Not exactly a good crowd. I feel like it's better me working than another girl with a kid or family or something though. It's not that I want to be around my family or even be with other people it just would be nice to feel welcome some place. I never have felt welcome any place really just kind of always lived in my own little world.
It's hard for me to make friends, really hard. To people I went to school with I'm that girl that was a loser and got hot senior summer and became a stripper, to people who knew me from 18 to 20 I was crazy, wild, and then disappeared, to girls at the club they probably just think I'm quiet. So I know it's my fault I'm alone but it just doesn't make it any easier. It's hard to see people all with a place to go and being happy and your just not.Not trying to be jealous but it's just hard to be so alone at times when society says you're not meant to be.
It's hard for me to make friends, really hard. To people I went to school with I'm that girl that was a loser and got hot senior summer and became a stripper, to people who knew me from 18 to 20 I was crazy, wild, and then disappeared, to girls at the club they probably just think I'm quiet. So I know it's my fault I'm alone but it just doesn't make it any easier. It's hard to see people all with a place to go and being happy and your just not.Not trying to be jealous but it's just hard to be so alone at times when society says you're not meant to be.