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So, the past 36 weeks have been fun and all...BUT, IT'S NEARLY TIME
Yes, this post is mainly constructed with hormones and sleep deprivation...but still!!!!
Mark (who you may know as Alidar Jarok from round the parts of CF) and I will be having our first son, Lucas, in a matter of weeks...
We're not ready. Now, don't get me wrong, I love kids, yada-yada, and don't think I will mess him up TOO severely, but we don't even have all the things we need for him. Due to financial crisis and shortcomings, we have some things, but are still lacking some of the bare basics. Top that with my anxiety and I'm about ripping out hair.
Terrified about labor. Terrfied about messing up our baby in one form or another (so long as he doesn't associate with most of either of our families, a huge chunk of possibility for corruption is erased). Terrified about still getting what we need...JUST TERRIFIED
I hate hospitals. I ESPECIALLY hate hospitals when I'm going to be in pain, and probably not very nice to my husband so he will get to deal with the unpleasantries, though I know he'll be as polite and wonderful as he always is...I love pets, I have many, but bringing them home from the pet store, all nice and fluffy in a little box and smacking them into a cage with a bowl of water is a LOT more simplistic than the earth shattering "here is your one chance to make a human right...muwahaha!" *Slight hyperventilation occurring randomly, please excuse...*
I need to cry. This is pathetic. I do NOT understand how guinea pigs reproduce so many times.
Help...help...HELP!!!!!
Mark (who you may know as Alidar Jarok from round the parts of CF) and I will be having our first son, Lucas, in a matter of weeks...
We're not ready. Now, don't get me wrong, I love kids, yada-yada, and don't think I will mess him up TOO severely, but we don't even have all the things we need for him. Due to financial crisis and shortcomings, we have some things, but are still lacking some of the bare basics. Top that with my anxiety and I'm about ripping out hair.
Terrified about labor. Terrfied about messing up our baby in one form or another (so long as he doesn't associate with most of either of our families, a huge chunk of possibility for corruption is erased). Terrified about still getting what we need...JUST TERRIFIED
I hate hospitals. I ESPECIALLY hate hospitals when I'm going to be in pain, and probably not very nice to my husband so he will get to deal with the unpleasantries, though I know he'll be as polite and wonderful as he always is...I love pets, I have many, but bringing them home from the pet store, all nice and fluffy in a little box and smacking them into a cage with a bowl of water is a LOT more simplistic than the earth shattering "here is your one chance to make a human right...muwahaha!" *Slight hyperventilation occurring randomly, please excuse...*
I need to cry. This is pathetic. I do NOT understand how guinea pigs reproduce so many times.
Help...help...HELP!!!!!

). Nothing else is NECESSARY. So if you have those basics quit worrying about whatever else you may not have. You can buy those convenience items if you decide you want them when finances become available.