I have an embarrassing question and just so unsure where I stand with god. I struggle with sin ( or 1 particular sin) in my life I have repented but end up doing it over and over again. I said something thinking it would scare me enough to never ever do and yes it was a stupid thing to do/say but I told god if I do it again he was to send me to hell. I'm terrified he will and it eats me up daily
What sends people to Hell is unbelief in Jesus. This is the sin the world is convicted of, John 16:9.
If you continue to believe on Jesus then you will be with God in Heaven.
As for our failings in behavior, this is not sin that Christians can be condemned for. None of us is perfect in behavior. I suggest you don't condemn yourself for your failings. That's exactly what the devil wants us to do.
BTW, many Christians misunderstand sin anyway.
God gives us definitions of sin in the Bible. Sadly, most Christians do not even use God's definitions of sin, thus they often misunderstand scripture.
For example, sin is defined as:
Unrighteousness, 1John 5:17
Transgression of the law,1John 3:4
Neither of these sins apply to Christians. In other words Satan, the accuser, cannot charge us with these sins.
Why?
Christians are righteous as our faith is counted for righteousness.
Rom 4:5
But to him who does not work but believes on Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is accounted for righteousness,
Hence we
cannot be charged with the sin of unrighteousness.
Regarding the law,
whatever the law says it says to those under it, Rom 3:19.
But Christians are not under the law according to God's word (Rom 8:2, Rom 10:4, Gal 3:25, Gal 5:18, 1Tim 1:9).
Hence we
cannot be charged with the sin of transgression of the law.
And this is all confirmed in scripture.
Rom 8:33
Who shall lay ANY THING (this includes sin)
to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth.
1John 3:9
Whoever has been born of God does NOT sin, for His seed (Christ )
remains in him; and he CANNOT sin, because he has been born of God.
1Pet 4:1
Therefore, since Christ suffered (crucified)
for us in the flesh, arm yourselves also with the same mind (our old man crucified with him, Rom 6:6)
, for he who has suffered in the flesh (Rom 6:6)
has CEASED from sin,
Jesus truly set us free from sin, John 8:36.
A Christian's
life is hid with Christ in God, Col 3:3.
That means that if you believe on Jesus then it's not the physical you God sees with all its failings and flaws. Instead it's Christ in you that God sees.
And Satan, the accuser, cannot charge you with sin because your life is hid in Christ and
in Christ there is no sin, 1John 3:5.
Rev 12:9-11
So the great dragon was cast out, that serpent of old, called the Devil and Satan, who deceives the whole world; he was cast to the earth, and his angels were cast out with him.
Then I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, “Now salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brethren, who accused them before our God day and night, has been cast down.
And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.
Continue to
believe on Jesus and then Satan, the accuser, cannot charge you with sin.
I might add though that Christians will not profit by doing wrong. None of us is perfect anyway, but God disciplines us when we do wrong. Consider King David who committed adultery and murder. God put away his sin, thus he did not have to face the death penalty under the law. But King David suffered consequences for the wrong he did.
Hope this helps.
Anyway, read God's word and don't let Satan rob you of what you have in Christ. Believe on Jesus and your faith is thus counted for righteous.