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Hi there I am hoping someone can help me. I have been a Christian for about 1.5 yr s. Normally outside of church and Christian activities I am very even-keeled. Not high or low I very very rarely get rattled either way and am known to be calm in all situations. But when I get into Christian situations weather it be church or praying alone, reading the Bible, study groups, Christian gatherings anything I deeply panic. Sometimes even get sick to my stomach and hyperventilate badly to the point of almost passing out. It feels like there is something around my chest squeezing. I often also get mad at unconnected things like my best friend a pastor there, but she just smiles and squeezes my hand. This is going on for 1 1/2 years now and I am beginning to think he does not want me there and am beyond frustrated. Am thinking all this was a mistake. I once almost took a swing at a pastor teaching alpha classes and believe me, outside of this environment I am so mellow I make Barry Mannilow look like a punk rocker. It might help to know I had a rough up bringing although I am 34 now with abuse and alcohol. But anyway anyone who can help I would be grateful as I said I passed frustrated and want to stop kidding myself he wants me. I have seen a lot of rejection in my life but I don't know if that is connected or not. But would like to hear from anyone with a similar situation. Thanks in advance Trish
Hi there I am hoping someone can help me. I have been a Christian for about 1.5 yr s. Normally outside of church and Christian activities I am very even-keeled. Not high or low I very very rarely get rattled either way and am known to be calm in all situations. But when I get into Christian situations weather it be church or praying alone, reading the Bible, study groups, Christian gatherings anything I deeply panic. Sometimes even get sick to my stomach and hyperventilate badly to the point of almost passing out. It feels like there is something around my chest squeezing. I often also get mad at unconnected things like my best friend a pastor there, but she just smiles and squeezes my hand. This is going on for 1 1/2 years now and I am beginning to think he does not want me there and am beyond frustrated. Am thinking all this was a mistake. I once almost took a swing at a pastor teaching alpha classes and believe me, outside of this environment I am so mellow I make Barry Mannilow look like a punk rocker. It might help to know I had a rough up bringing although I am 34 now with abuse and alcohol. But anyway anyone who can help I would be grateful as I said I passed frustrated and want to stop kidding myself he wants me. I have seen a lot of rejection in my life but I don't know if that is connected or not. But would like to hear from anyone with a similar situation. Thanks in advance Trish