Addmitance

[christian cutie danni]

I have a headache. Its because I cried so much tonight. I cried because I finally addmitted that I have and eating disorder. It's gotten way out of hand. I told my StepMom, and she cried with me. I was crying and she asked me what was wrong. "Everything is wrong... Everything!" I said sobbing. "So much is wrong I can't explain, things I can't tell you, things I've done..." Jami just looked at me and told me that I can tell her anything, she wouldn't judge me or anything.

So I told her. "I know I'm skinny.. But sometimes I don't think I am. And I can't help it." I said. She waited for me to go on. "Its alot of things... Sometimes I eat, and then I get sick... and sometimes I can't eat at all... It scares me..." And she just nodded. "I know. I've known for a long time." SHe told me...

Then I told her about me and MIke, and what I did with him, and she nodded, and cried.

But i was so afraid of finally addmitting it, and yet, when I did, it felt so good, I felt like a weight had been lifted. I told Mike I admitted it and he is so happy for me.. I am too. That's one step closer to recovering, but I still have a Looooong way to go.

 

[reeann]

How brave you are. I would ask you prayfully considering 12 step group for eating disorders. Its is a threefold problem (physical, emotional, spiritual). Going through it with people who understand the powerlessness you have over this. It is only with surrendering to God where the sanity can take over. It is a hard journey, can be rather scarey sometimes as you work the questions and the steps, but in the end, just as freeing. You keep up the good work. Speaking about it takes away some of its power. Walk in the light, and there is nothing that God can't do. Blessings to you, your so brave.
Reeann

 

[ark_angel]

More power to ya girl, being able to admit it infront of someone is one of the bravest things you can do. It is a very difficult task, that in the end always must come out. That is something that I haven't done yet, and when you have to keep things secret it is so much harder to actually bring yourself out of it. I know how hard that must have been to be able to talk about this to someone, I know when I had to come out and tell some about my S.I.. WHOA that was so scary, especially when they made me tell my mom, and I was still too shicken to actually tell her in person so I wrote her an email. But it is true that it does take a large load off your shoulders, you are definitly on your way to recovery, now you have people who can support you and help you along the way because you have come to the light with it. Just remember the Lord is with you always, even before you brought it into the light, the Lord knew and He knew your deepest hurts and needs and desires. He is the One that will help you through, He loves you sooooooo much, not even words can describe how much He loves you.
Keep your head high and your eyes fixed on the Lord and NOTHING can stand in your way that the Lord cannot defeat or help you get ven when times seem hard and the mountain seems too high to climb, remember that the Lord does not place anything in your life that you cannot handle, yes there may be things you can't handle alone, but there is nothing that you can't overcome with the Lord's help.
I shall keep you in my prayers
Love in Christ
Angela

 

[chaelsworld0o]

Congradulations for telling them. It took me 5 years just to tell my mom. God will take you and just hold you, girl. It of course is the first step to recover and giving it to God. Keep up the good work. I'll pray for you!!

 

[luv4godremains]

well done, you're soo amazing! I wish I could do that! my mum just keeps screamin at me! I'm soo proud of you! God bless, I'll be praying for you!