Acceptance

[knw1991]

Hello. I'm just posting to get out my feelings. After reading some of the posts to my threads I have come to accept some painful truths in my life.
I've accepted that I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and that what's hurting me will never change. I cannot get back the years lost. I've accepted that whatever Christian journey I tried to make happen ended in failure. I've accepted that my life won't get better until I ignore everything that's hurting me and somehow trust god. That may take a whole lifetime I don't know

 

[knw1991]

I'm sorry for posting. I've made up my mind about my life and end

 

[Krissy Cakes]

I'm praying for you.

Your right about something. You can NOT get back the years you lost. I've tried. Hun it doesn't work. Just keep moving forward and keep going to your doctors appointments, taking your medicine. (if you take any)

I'm here if you want to talk.

 

[Tigger45]

May the Lord shine the light of His love on your life.

 

[knw1991]

Help me

 

[Tigger45]

When I am really stressed out I get down on my knees, bent over with my face to the ground much like a turtle, hands out in front of me, palms up and I slowly recite the Lord's prayer. Carefully thinking about each word and phrase. I picture myself saying it directly to the Lord. It has a cleansing effect and brings joy and security to my soul. I hope this helps. sorry you're hurting so much

 

[knw1991]

This website isn't helping me it's hurting me even more

 

[accensa candela]

Sounds like you and I have some things in common, maybe. I just got diagnosed with major depression, but it is something I have lived with for most of my life... just it has gotten ten thousand times worse over the past few months. I don't know what caused your depression but for me I have been let down, hurt, and mentally abused most of my life by people. That snowballed into other problems. Are you taking meds? If you are and your still feeling blah I'm guessing they are not working. I was prescribed Effexor and some other junk but personally I will not touch any of it. The possible side effects are insane, it actually made me laugh when I was reading one of my prescriptions can cause major liver damage or disease. That's great, artificial happiness to stop depression to be replaced with the possible agonizing death of liver disease or the possibility of soggy boxers every ten minutes... great news. Even better is that it says it can cause severe depression and have suicidal thoughts... sounds like the perfect cure for depression. I am currently looking into natural medicine that might help a bit. Tea for example actually helps me a bit, its kind of calming. I have a fat lazy cat that kind of helps too, he does not offer any positive words to me, but its great that I never have to listen to negative words come out of his mouth ether. Its just nice to have him there. I tell him I'm stressed out of my mind, he does nothing but stretches and yawns... pretty much the same as a therapist does but I don't have to pay the cat to listen to me. But, at the end of my rope yesterday I handed my life to God and said I'm done. I'm done trying to cut my own path, done done done. God owes me nothing and I am far from worthy of his love. But he does love me, he came down from an unimaginably perfect place to be degraded, tortured and nailed to the cross for me. I have had a horrible life but it would not even equal to one minute of what Jesus would have went through. For me to give in and please Satan by giving up would be as hurtful to Jesus as it would be to stand before him when he was hanging on the cross and saying to him "thanks but no thanks".

I don't advise you take any of my advice such as no meds or a cat rather then a therapist, everyone is different and you should look into all options to see what works best for you. But I do advise you hand your life over to Jesus and trust he will fix it for you. Keep posting, I'm not a cat or a therapist but if you want someone to listen I'm listening.

 

[J0SHUA]

Knw one of my best friends has overcome clinical depression and he did it by picking up hobbies and making positive changes in his life. It really does help and you seem like you would be able to do the same thing. You have very good potential but you HAVE to stay positive. Don't let things bring you down and decide to no longer put the past in perspective. As you could see from my last post I sometimes get caught in a bad mindset and setbacks, but what depressed person doesn't? I think it takes practice but it can definitely be done. It's good that you're doing acceptance. At the same time try surrounding yourself with positive people and stay close with God. I know from experience that it helps. The toughest part is making things happen and improving your life yourself rather than waiting on someone else, but in the end that's what will improve your life the most. Try to think right now what you want in life and do what it takes to make it happen. Don't overthink or make excuses, just do what it takes to improve your life

 

[Criada]

Love you and praying for you, sweetie : hug:

 

[Press On]

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Hello. I'm just posting to get out my feelings. After reading some of the posts to my threads I have come to accept some painful truths in my life.
I've accepted that I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and that what's hurting me will never change. I cannot get back the years lost. I've accepted that whatever Christian journey I tried to make happen ended in failure. I've accepted that my life won't get better until I ignore everything that's hurting me and somehow trust god. That may take a whole lifetime I don't know



Praying for you

 

[Press On]

PRAYING FOR YOU, KNW.

 

[knw1991]

There are always positive hopeful joyful messages for those who are doing great and are happy but for the very people who are struggling to live there is no hope, just deal with it, or accept the cards life gave you. I bet of I were expecting a child, getting married, ordained as a pastor or something I would get nothing but attention, hope, joyful messages from everyone but for the suicidal person there is nothing!!! Some world we live in. This site is a death sentence and so was the day I ever asked for salvation. Don't worry I'll be dead soon and you all won't have to hear from me or be annoyed by my threads. But I know if I ever met someone suicidal I would be by their side and not leave them to feel inferior like most people and God make you feel because you aren't happy and have nothing going for yourself. There is no such thing as hope and I'm done trying to find something that doesn't exist. Goodbye and if you don't ever see me post again it's cuz I'm dead. Have a nice time in heaven worshipping a god that made you a sinner by default cuz of what two stupid people did and made you suffer because of "sin" and who lets people be murdered, raped and torture but yet brags about having all the power. I wish I didn't care whether he loved me or not then I could live my life not giving a crap like most atheists do. I wish there was a religion detox program

 

[Spunkn]

Have we in any way made you feel inferior Kendra?

I'm sorry that you feel there is no hope, but ultimately there is only hope in God. I know it seems like God is against you, and God doesn't love you. But that's Satan, not God. Satan wants to convince you that God isn't loving, doesn't care about you, and the people who are doing evil get away with it.

The truth is they won't get away with it. The reason they aren't being punished is because God is patient and He wants all to come to repentance. But eventually time will run out, and there will be judgement.

When in depression, it's hard to find hope in much of anything. It's almost impossible for most people to give hope to someone who's struggling with depression, because without having gone through it, they do not understand what it's like. They see it as "having a bad day" but they don't really realize what is going on.

There is hope to be found in God. Why would you come up against resistance when you are looking into your salvation? Because Satan is going to attack when we are vulnerable. He knows our weaknesses. But he's not going to do it openly, because that would have the opposite effect, and cause us to grow closer to God. He's going to do it subtlely and convince us that God really doesn't care, and that God is cruel when those are both lies.

We do care about you here, and I still pray all the time for you.

Throwing away religion will not solve the problem because God is real. People can deny it all they way, but deep down everyone knows there is a God.

 

[knw1991]

I'm sorry I didn't mean to say you all made me feel inferior it just seems there is hope for everyone except the depressed
Thank you for always encouraging me

 

[jamesup7777]

Praying for you knw........Always remember you are not alone in your depression. God is right there beside you. Satan is the one who is making you doubt.
I am preaching to you and myself...

 

[jamesup7777]

Don't give up!
God Bless
Jim

 

[knw1991]

I'm alone I have nothing to live for
I'm a mistake. And useless
My life was cursed from the start a recipe for disaster

 

[knw1991]

I'm going to be dead this year I already know it and I don't care if speaking negative causes it to happen I rather die than live each day alone in pain, and wondering if a distant god hears me or even cares and in the reality of my pathetic life of no father major depression and loneliness. I wish I could press a button to die. I don't care anymore

 

[Scott1979]

Since you have been diagnosed with a depressive disorder, are you taking any medication?