Absolute Terror

[Shyguyelite]

I was driving home from Barns n' Nobles, Melbourne Florida. It was about `10:30PM. Everything was fine, until I turned my car so it faced East for the first time in the trip.

To my horror, the moon, a wanning gibbous, about 74% full, was blood red. One of the signs of, essentiallly, the end of my physical existance, absolute terror filled me. An intense kind where suddenly nothing matters. I forgot how I would have to return to college and start classes soon. I forgot how irritating the car in front of me was. I forgot... no, I didn't forget. It just didn't matter any more. Nothing mattered. All I saw before me was the end of all ends.

Everything I had done until now seemed so pointless. What did I do for the Lord in college? All those times I was too afraid to speak up, or the times I should've been silent.

Absolute regret over, mostly, inaction due to fear. Fear... Fear that was nothing compared to what I was feeling. All the times I passed the homeless man by cuz I was afraid what people would think. All the opportunities to help people I passed up due to my own selfishness. I would be giving an account of it in minutes. I thought to myself, "Well good job Dane, idiot."

After a few minutes, the lack of events to come in the book of Revelations made me wonder if this was actually the end.

I looked up at the moon again. Oh, my bad. It was kinda orange. Not really blood red. Oh well.

I went home and watched TV.

The moral of this story; when Jesus comes back, there will be no doubt who it is, and what is happening haha!

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................I don't usually freak out under odd weather, celestial conditions. In any case, this was perhaps the 2nd time in my life when this absolute fear filled me. The first occured when, for some unknownst reason, our church started going nuts on the book of Revelations. Goodness gracious. It was Hellfire and repent now!!! the end is coming!!! Spooky stuff. Good substance for a growing Christian boy.

If you have never felt this fear, then good. You are of sound mind and know what causes orange-red moons.

However I just want to say, it is absolute terror. Nothing mattered any more. The place where I was headed. The things I wanted to do. Everything was meaningless.

I imagine this feeling is similar to what it feels like when someone pulls a gun to your face. Who knows if its better or worse. Probably worse, since its not God pulling the strings. But its amazing.

Recreational absolute terror. I think i'm on to something! From now on, I'm going to listen to nothing but "THE WORLDS ENDING TOMORROW!!!" sermons. I'll also install a gizmo that will make the moon blood red when I look out a window.

In closing... you don't want to be left behind.
In closing, everything you do now, you will have to give an account for.
In closing, its amazing how quickly a human being's troubles and triumphs can collapse into a meaningless nothingness.
In closing, its amazing how I can watch TV, and return to my old, sinful life style, even after a misidentification of the end of the world. LOL. I've really gotta do something about that.

PS I hope this post didn't spook anyone out about The End or God.
God is good.

 

[fishstix]

What's odd about an orange/red moon? They happen quite often, whenever there's dust in the atmosphere, such as during harvest time. Thus the term 'harvest moon'.

 

[Shyguyelite]

I figured there would be an explanation

Just too lazy to google it

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

I thought you were going to say you got into a wreck.

 

[Religious Crisis]

I thought it was a dream, that you had at B&N.

 

[wiggbuggie]

interesting, i remeber a story i heard back in the day thats kinda similar of what you said about missing out the chances of doing good or sometimes failing to see what God has put in front of us. Well the story goes like this:

There was a flood in a town and a man was trapped on a roof. "Help God help me!" the man cried. Later 2 men traveling in a boat said to him "Get on we will rescue you" The trapped man said "no thanks, God will rescue me" They nodded and left. The water level rose and the man continued to pray. Then another boat came by. "come on or you'll drown!". The man replied "no thanks God will rescue me" They left and the water filled up and the man drowned. When the man woke up in heaven, he cried to God. "Lord why didn't you save me!" and God replied " I wanted to, thats why I send those 2 crew man!"

 

[sb573]

hey the frist time i saw a red moon it was a full moon and i was driving with my sister by the lake on the way home we both freaked so your not alone

 

[Rin4Christ]

a story about a red moon on a lighter note:

I recently moved to Maryland, and it was already late as we drove from virginia into maryland. About the time we crossed the state lines, the moon rose over the trees- deep red. I recently graduated from Texas A&M university where the school colors are maroon and white. So I joked over the walky-talky to my parents in the other car that the "maroon" moon was marylands way of welcoming me to the state. Unfortunantly about 10 min later, the mood was a dusty orange color- earily similar to the arch-rival of Texas A&M- University of Texas. UT's colors are burnt orange and white. "Well" I figured, "there must be a UT student commin to maryland tonight too. But thats ok, they welcomed me first!"

All those times I was too afraid to speak up, or the times I should've been silent.

I can relate to this. Many times I look back on situations and wished that I had said the right thing that could have made a diffrence. instead I was silent....

 

[Tariel]

I went numb reading your post...that sort of stuff happens to me all the time

 

[Shyguyelite]

I went numb reading your post...that sort of stuff happens to me all the time

No worries. When Christ returns it will be without a doubt. So if you ever feel like I did, then just take a few breaths; its probably just dust in the atmosphere haha.